Save yourself and I'll hold them back tonight

6.chapter

Frank's pow

"Just let me get the mattress, i'll be right back." Gee ran out of the room.

I sat on his bed and buried my head in hands. It took all of my self control not to kiss him earlier. I finally got a chance to touch his hair and they felt as amazing as i thought they would, if not more. Not to mention his perfect body, god. I know he thinks he's fat and is extremely uncomfortable with himself. If he could just see what i see. 

He rushed back in, "it's completely destroyed and covered with stains. I don't know what happened." Well that was odd. "I guess, i'll sleep on a couch." He frowned. "You can't sleep on a couch, it's too small." He sighed and then looked at me with hopeful eyes. "Are you comfortable with sleeping here, on bed?"  

"Hell, yeah!" My face lit up. God, at least hide your excitement, you dumbass. He smiled. "You know, it's a little hot in here." He opened the window and i turned off the lights. We leaned out and gazed at the stars. It was a little chilly outside and Gee pressed his arm to mine. 

I couldn't help but smile. This was one of those perfect moments you think about when you have to calm down or when you're sad. I closed my eyes in attempt to memorise this as best as i could. 

"Thanks" he mumbled. I looked up at him in a surprise. "For what?" He just shrugged. "For being here and helping me and being such an amazing friend." I smiled at him. "Nothing could ruin our friendship right?" He looked worried. "Not a single thing in this whole wide world," i assured him. I wonder what he had on his mind.

"Let's close the window now, i don't want you the get a cold," i said and he blushed a little. I pulled the curtains and the room became dark. I could hear my heartbeat and i was sure Gee could here it too, it was so loud. 

I went towards the bed and crushed into something. "So-sorry, i can't see anything." We managed to sit on a bed and i felt his hand on my chest. "Ah, there you are," he giggled a bit. I moved closer, touching his face. I could feel the heat in his cheeks. I moved my hand through his hair and down his neck. 

He quickly stood up. "I have to tell you something," he started, "i have this sort of crush on..." "No!" I shouted, almost loud enough to wake up Mikey and Ray. "Please don't, i know this i heard you and Mikey in the bathroom." I felt broken. Like someone stabbed me and thorn me to pieces. I can't loose him and i definitely don't want to hear about that guy, whoever he is. 

"But i thought you said earlier..." his voice broke. My eyes already adjusted enough to see his head fall down and fists clenched.  It hurt so much to see him break down right in front of me. What did i say? How could i be so selfish?

I pulled his arm down quickly which resulted in him loosing his balance and falling right on me. My instincts took over and i kissed him. I crashed my lips on to his. My hand rested on the back of his head, tangled in his hair, and the other on his back, pushing him closer. I moved my lips, brushing against his. It was a warming sensation and my stomach filled with butterflies. 

I pulled away slowly, making him gasp a bit. He stood back up, trembling. "Fuck it, i don't care if i ruin everything, look Frank i get it. I'm a pathetic ugly shit and you kissed me out of pity, but i can't help it, i-i really like you, so don't just kiss me like that." He was breathing hard. I blinked a few times, trying to register what he has just said. Wait a second. He likes me??? 

"But i thought you like some guy, who doesn't know you're name..." I managed to say, still dazed. "No," he cried, "I was talking about you, how you don't know i'm gay and Mikey said it's because i don't talk to you about those things." I realised i overreacted. Again. But that doesn't matter right now. 

"Gee, you are the most adorable person ever. I love the way you get exited about the little things, and how you care for your friends. I love how shy you are and modest and so fucking oblivious to how beautiful you are. I don't deserve you."

 He pulled me in a hug. I heared a little sob, escaping his mouth and i hugged him tighter. He pulled away and wiped his face. "See? You're truly amazing." I could hear a smile in his voice. I laid down with him beside me. He turned away from me and left a big space between us. I frowned. "What're you doing over there?" I wrapped my arms around his waist and pulled him closer. He giggled a little and turned to face me. I brushed his hair and he snuggled on my chest. 

I kissed him on top of his head and drifted to sleep thinking, how on earth did i get to be so damn lucky.