History《Yuri Plisetsky》

Special Chapter

~ Sorry for the short chapter! Please play the song for this chapter, it's really good! And this chapter doesn't really go with the plot of this story, it's just a side chapter. It's just about Ariana admitting her feelings for Yuri, so please enjoy this speical chapter!~

Ever since I was a little girl, all I've ever wanted was for someone to be by my side, for as long as I lived. Someone to hold me on my darkest days. Someone to hold my hand as we walk towards the bright light that would lead to unexpected journeys. Someone to trust....someone to love. My mother never showed me love, not any love that a mother should show their child. A mother is supposed to protect their child, kiss their injuries, sing them songs, kiss them goodnight. And when the day was tough, hold them as they cried their eyes out and tell them that everything was gonna be allright. To tell them that their special someone would come into their lives someday. Not to tell them that their a disapointment, or tell them that no one will ever love them, because they are simply a mistake, something that was created, but not ever supposed to walk this earth. To be set free. To make their own choices.

It was like, my mother hated me the day I was born, she raised me as if I was nothing but a pest, a bug she could squash with her shoe if ever needed. I would always pray at night, that I would wake up and it would all be a dream, that my mother was not a cruel person, but a caring and loving mother that she should be. But once I woke up, reality hit me, and it hit me hard. I would never have a perfect mother, much less a perfect life. And I would just have to except it. My father, I loved him, and he loved me. Even though he and mom would fight, he was still there, but when he left, my whole world crumbled down. He was my only saviour, and he promised to come back...but he never did, no. He left me all alone to fight my own battles, and I had to learn of the consequences myself. All I ever wanted was for someone to save me from my darkness. I wanted to be set free in the cage I was trapped in, I wanted to know what it was like to live life with no fears behind you. So I waited, soon after enough waiting, I gave up. I had to face the fact that no one would come and unlock my cage, that no one would show me what it was like to live life. To have no fears, to never look back as we made our own path.

Ice skating wad my only escape, even if it was only for 3 hours. It was enough to let me stretch my caged wings, enough to get a single taste of freedom. Ice skating brought peace to my life, it gave me a chamce to act like myself, with no worries at all. But even so, my path was still dark. My path wad still uncomplete. I still needed that special light. And I thought all hope was lost. That is, until, I met my special light, the person that would hold my hand as we walked into the light together. That person was Yuri Plisetsky. I smiled that day, knowing that he was my saviour. My light in my darkest days. He actually existed. Of course he was cocky and rude, but if you got to know him, then you would see what I saw. Because what I saw, was a broken boy who was having trouble crawling away from his darkness, I held out my hand as I smiled.

"Let's go home."
 
He nodded his head as he toom it, and I pulled him out of the pit of darkness that held him there, and we smiled. We stood up as we turned to the light, and walked forward.

I was his saviour, and he was mine, but I would never tell him that, no. Not yet at least. Besides, to him, I probably nothing mors then a best friend. But to me, Yuri was my everything. But I am too afraid to tell him that, so for now, I'll just have to hold these feelings back. Lock them up in the cage were they belong, no matter how much it would hurt me.

'Ari!'

The 11 year old me stopped walking down the street and turned around to see an 11 year old Yuri running my way.

'Yes?'

He stopped as he bent down to catch his breath.

'I...wanted...to ask you...something.' he said inbetween breaths, I only nodded as he stood up straight and extended his hand.

'Let's be best friends from now on, okay?'

My little heart cracked slightly, as I smiled softly and took his hand.

'Yeah...best friends.'

Friends.

What a funny word. Oh Yuri, I wished you knew how fast my heart would best for you. Why do you have to be so dense? I wish boys could be smarter. No matter how we act, whether it's doing our hair just for them, or acting super nice just to them. They never seem to get any of the simple clues we give them. And my heart slowly breaks because of this. But I endure it as I wear my simple smile. Oh how I wish we could something more then friends. But...that day will never come, and I've lost all hope, I have to focus on competitions and make it to the finals. These feelings can't get in my way, no matter the pain. I'm sorry. That's just how it has to be, I need to put on a brave face and face reality, we're friends, nothing more. A simple word. Nothing can hold me back, not even something as silly as love. I must move forward. And continue to live life, because this is how life is, it's never easy, nor fair.

What a sad world.