Barson- I need you

Going Home

-At the hospital 1 week later-

Doctor: "Okay Olivia, you are able to be discharged now but you are going to need to be under the care of someone else over the age of 21."

Barba: "I'll sign her release form. She'll be staying with me until further notice."

Doctor: "Ok, Olivia, I'm going to need to see you next week for a follow-up appointment. And, no intercourse for at least a month."

Benson: "Thank you. I will see you next week."

With that, Barba pushed Liv out of the hospital room to the desk and signed her release forms. Barba helped her into the car and drove her to his house.

Benson: "Barba, we have to stay at my apartment. I need to be with Noah."

Barba: "It's ok Liv, I have everything all sorted out."

Barba helped Liv back into the wheelchair and pushed her up to his door and helped her to get into the house. Barba helped Liv over to his room and helped her to sit down on the bed.

Barba: "You can stay in here with me."

Benson: "But what about Noah?"

Barba: "I've set up a nursery in the guest room for him. Would you like to see?"

Barba helped Liv over to the guest room and when Liv saw what was in there, she started crying. Barba had painted the room with grey and blue walls. he put a white toddler bed in and he got a beige carpet. There were picture of Noah and Liv on the wall and there were little white wooden letters that said Noah on the wall. Under the letters, there were two big white chairs with a small one in the middle.

Benson: (crying) "Barba, I can't believe you did all this for him. I love you so much! Where is Noah now?"

Barba: "He's with Lucy right now. I wanted us to have some time just us."

The two of them walked over to the chairs and sat down.

Barba: "I guess this is as good as time as any to ask you my question."

Benson: "What is it."

Barba: "Would you like to move in with me? I mean your place is a crime scene and you need care and..."

Liv cut him off.

Benson: "I would love to."

Barba: "I know the psychiatrist said no big changes right now but I really love you."

Benson: "I think that it's ok. This is something I really want and I think it will help me heal."

Liv leaned over and kissed Barba. She got up off her chair and sat down on his lap. 

Barba: "You know what the doctor said Liv, we can't do this right now."

Benson: "I know but I just love you so much."

Barba: "Then I guess we can find something in the middle. Why don't we take a bath."

Barba picked her up and carried her over to the bathroom. He started the bath water.

Barba: "Hey Liv, I'll be right back."

Barba left the room and came back with candles and a lighter. Liv, still self conscious of the scars on her chest turned away from Barba and took her clothes off. He snaked his arms around her waist and began to kiss her neck. He took off his clothes and sat down in the bath. Liv sat in front of him and he continued to kiss her neck. He started to run his hands up her body and came to her breasts. He grabbed them and she winced. She started crying.

Barba: "I'm so sorry Liv."

Liv turned around and looked at Barba. He saw how bruised she still was and he saw the nasty cut still across her chest. Liv saw him staring and immediately started sobbing.

Barba: "You're safe here. I'm with you, you're okay."

Benson: (Sobbing) "I'm sorry."

Barba: "What are you sorry about?"

Benson: (Sobbing) "It's all my fault. I screwed everything up. We can't even be together without me screwing it up. I'm so sorry." 

Barba: "No, no, it's not your fault. I shouldn't have rushed you into this. Why don't we just have some dinner and watch a movie. Lucy will bring Noah here in 2 hours."

Benson: "Okay, I guess we could do that."

Barba got out and grabbed two towels he helped Liv up and wrapped her in a towel and kissed her. He wrapped the other towel around his waist and then helped her over to the bedroom. 

Benson: "I don't have any clothing."

Barba: "Yeah you do, I grabbed everything from your apartment. It's on the left side of the closet. And your pajamas are on the left side of the dresser."

Benson: "Thanks."

Liv stumbled over to the dresser and grabbed underwear and pajamas and tried to get herself dressed. She got her shirt on but when she reached down to pull on her underwear, she screamed in pain and fell to the floor.

Barba: "Why don't you just let me help you."

Benson: "I just want to be able to do basic things by myself."

Barba: "Well until you can, I'm going to help you."

Barba helped Liv get dressed and helped her into bed.

Barba: "Here, I'll bring you dinner."

Barba came back a few minutes later with two bowls of pasta. He hopped into bed next to her and they ate their dinner.