Hybrid Princess

12

Zyrah decided to stay with me, but I could easily tell she was cautious around me. I didn't like this fact but let her continue with her ways because she wouldn't fully trust me until I let her decide that for herself. Everyday Zyrah went out for a run with me, normally we just took the same route but when she said she wanted to take another I thought nothing of it. Running relived me of all my stress and worries, and resently I've had a lot of those.

Since Wades death I allowed myself to grieve in isolation but after Zyrah entered my life, I finally felt a peace with his death. Everyday I blamed myself for his death and living like that wasn't good, it also wouldn't make him come back either. Although I still didn't fully forgive myself or get over Wades death living became easier.

Small things that Zyrah did reminded me of Wade, even though I hadn't seen her in horse form I knew that even that would remind me of him. Shaking my head I focused on pushing myself further, the burning of my legs fulled my emotions. Tears streamed down my face as I recalled what happened that day.

'I woke up to him smiling down at me, the action was subtle. He kissed me on my forehead and headed down for breakfast telling me to catch up when I decided to get out of bed. The day was beautiful much like the one today, birds were chirping and the sun gently pushed me to get up and start the day.

My mom had made pancakes and bacon for breakfast and by the time  I came downstairs Wade was happily talking with my dad both of whom were eating. I grabbed a serving of my own proceeding to sit beside Wade and listen to his conversation. 

'"It's lovely today. I think I'll go for a run later, you want to join me Jo (my dad)?"' 

'"No. I think I'll stay here and help Elisa (my mom) with the dishes."'

'"Okay then after breakfast I'll go for a run that way I can get back home before lunch."' he decided

Their conversation was pleasant, somehow it seemed staged to me now but in the moment it sounded normal. Finishing up breakfast he kissed me briefly before leaving. I headed into the living room and turned on the record, the old timey music soothing me as I hummed to it. I swayed back and forth as I cleaned the living room the soft melody filling the quiet house.

The only other sound I could hear was my mom singing to the music and my dad laughing as they cleaned up the dishes together. Smiling to myself I thought of one day that being me and Wade. Old music was the way to my heart, sadly when I lived at the palace my other father didn't have any records. Calling the music outdated but to me it always had a spot in my heart.

The perfect day was ruined the second my parents house caught on fire....'

Zyrah was yelling for me I realized after coming back from zoning out. Her arms were wrapped around me and I was collapsed on the ground my knees burning from scrapping them. Sobs come to my ears and I realized they were mine. Uncontrollable I sobbed and she held me speaking soft words.

I was a wreak but no matter how much I told myself that I was fine or that I should suck it up and to stop being a baby my cries got worse. Now I was full on weeping my hands dug into the ground tearing up the fallen leaves and soil. I scratched at the earth angry and sad at it for taking away Wade but also at myself for allowing all of it to happen. I progressed further into my sorrow allowing myself to slip into a state of panic.

My breathing closed up as I tried to sob more and my hands bled from the rocks I'd dug up from the earth. Everything was closing in on me and I couldn't stop it. Suddenly Zyrah did something  I never thought she could do, or would do. She sang.

Her tone was soft. So soft that if I had been sobbing instead of gasping for air I'd have missed it. 

And she started with "I'll be seeing you....."

She hummed before starting the next line "In all the old, familiar places that this heart of mine embraces"

Tears streamed down my face as she carried on "All day through in that small cafe the park across the way"

Every line brought back my memories of Wade and I gripped her tightly as she soothed my hair ever so softly singing "The children's carousel the chestnut tree the wishing well"

My breathing had calmed down now as I listened to her tears rolling down my cheeks like rain "I'll be seeing you...."

Rocking me slowly she continued "In every lovely, summer's day and everything that's bright and gay I'll always think of you that way"

My tears had long stopped but I listened on to her singing as I stared at the sunset "I'll find you in the morning sun and when the night is new....."

Finally she came to a stop on the last few lines realizing it was getting dark, but just as the moon peaked over the trees she sang "I'll be looking at the moon but I'll be seeing you"

Fresh tears came to my eyes but I closed them. Finally I got up grabbed Zyrah's hand and started walking towards the cabin. My last thought as I continued walking wasn't mine but my wolfs as she finally talked after months of being away was 'That's the song, that was playing when he pushed us out of the house. And that was the same song that we were humming to moments before the house caught fire. But most importantly that is the song that saved me.'

---I hope everyone likes this chapter, it might be a long one but I think its good.

Life4dayz