.Rise And Fall.

.Rise and Fall. (72)

|Chapter: 72|

"It was too good to be true anyway", I said before sipping my third glass of drink. I want to stop, this is not me but how can I when it was actually stopping the pain for the time being. Ian shook his head sadly before giving me a look of sympathy.

"I don't know what to say", he said, slowly.

I understood. "It's okay I'm enjoying your company and the peace", I tried to smile but it just came out deflated. It was true, he didn't push anything but was just being there for me and I couldn't ask for anything more. I needed this, the feeling of being alone and alone with someone, if that make sense.

Like Salvor said, the boys actually did plan something for my birthday by setting a small party near the bank of the same river that brought back so many memories. At first, I refused to join when I looked like a zombie after bawling my eyes out like the world is going to end. But then Sarah came along and pushed me until I said yes and when I saw the place that they decorated for me, I thought I'd have surely regretted if I didn't come and my mood by slight amount was lifted for their effort.

And now here I was, drunk and celebrating my eighteenth birthday. Not only did I have the pain of growing old, but also the pain of experiencing my first official heartbreak. What a joy, right?

"Can I ask you something?"

Ian instantly nodded his head and placed the beer bottle he was drinking from aside before turning to give me his full attention. I gulped down the remaining content of my cup while crunching my nose due to the awful smell and the burn feeling ran down my dry throat.

"Do you think he really loved me even a tiny tiny tiny bit?", I slurred. Suddenly I want to cry at the thought of him.

"I think so, I mean he looked really happy everytime I saw him with you. He even joined the team for you..", he answered.

"Then why..?" It came out as a whisper, my voice cracking at the end. I pushed him out of my mind and poured myself another drink before I finished it in one go.

"Whoa easy there." Ian chuckled lightly taking the cup away from my hand and then the bottle out of my reach. I wiped my mouth with the back of my hand. I started laughing.

"You know being with Nick was like living in a rainbow and riding on a unicorn, adventurous and imaginary. One moment he was like goofy grin, mischievous smile and ridiculously handsome smirk and the other he was like dark, dangerous yet so beautiful. His double personality was like the two sides of the coins, so different from each other but one at the same time...and I love them the same". I pushed my hair behind my ear with my both hands, exposing my face to get hit by the cold air and closed my eyes smiling like an idiot.

I don't know why I was telling him, but remember Ian is easy to talk with and a very good listener. He didn't interrupt me once and again, I was met with the silence with him beside as the river rattle away, heading for its destined place. Then, I heard the boys laughing probably from one of the made up ghost stories, narrated by my dear bestfriend Sarah. Instead of hooting and howling over where they sat under a tree drinking, Ian was sitting with me near the shore.

Slowly, I lay back on the cold ground and seconds later Ian joined. I could feel the back of his hands touching mine, due to the warm and comforting feel I didn't pull away.

"There is something good about this place today, isn't it?", I heard him ask faintly. I peeped through the corner of my eyes to see him smiling, staring at the sky that lack of stars tonight. My eyelids were heavy and all I wanted to do was actually fall asleep.