Her Beef

Chapter 5 Our Loss

I really didn't want to go to this funeral. It's really sad cause it's my baby that died, but I didn't want to see them put her in the ground. We named her Aaliyah Draniece Graham. She only survived three days after being born early. I was super depressed and angry as hell. I have barely talked to Aubrey since I've been home from the hospital. " Hey babe you ready to go?" Aubrey asked me as he sat next to me on the bed. I didn't look at him or say a word because I felt like it was his fault. If he would have never been fucking with Dawn off and on this wouldn't have happened. He killed our daughter and he doesn't seem too care.

       " I'm not going Drake! So please leave me the hell alone! I don't want to see them put her in the ground." I said trying to fight back the tears. He tried to touch me but I pulled away from him. I was numb and I wanted revenge against Dawn. " Fine I'm going." He said leaving the room.

       I got up and went to the window to see Aubrey pulling out of the driveway. I hopped in the shower and let the water run over me. I cried until I had no more tears to cry. I got out and put my hair in a messy bun and put on some black sweats and a black tank top. I put my shades on and got in the car. I took a deep breathe and headed to the cemetery.

     I was parked on top of the hill where I could see everything. Aubrey was boo who crying along with everyone else. Her casket was so small. I just started to cry. Some girl was looking my way but I couldn't tell if she saw me or if she was just staring off in space. Everybody was there even my brother Shadd. Le'Andria Johnson was singing God Will Take Care Of You and everyone was in tears.

Messages:
Unknown: you should come say goodbye
Me: who the fuck is this
Unknown: Desaundra

I just dropped my phone and looked in the sea of people. I noticed that the girl that was staring my way was missing. I felt a hand on my shoulder I turned around and there she was. She pulled me in for a hug and I just cried like never before.

Some years had pasted since I have seen Desaundra. I know she is my brother's baby mother, but we lost touch. She was my best friend and my God-sister and I'm so happy she is here.

  "How you holding up boo" she said staring into my puffy eyes. "I'm numb and hurt. Why me Sauna? I hate Aubrey because his ex bitch made me lose my baby. She attacked me and now she is gone." I said fighting back tears.

   "I don't know why it happened but it did and you can't hate Aubrey for Dawn's actions." She said rubbing my back. "Just come to New York with me for a little to get your thoughts together." She said. I agreed to go so I packed my bag and left after the funeral without saying a word to Aubrey. If I don't get away I'm going to go insane or worst try to kill myself.