Her Beef

Chapter 11: What About Us

  I really wasn't ready to deal with anything right now. When I got home from Jamaica we had to deal with our mother's death. We had a small service and cremated her like she wanted. We were going to spread her ashes in Miami next week. I had to go for all star weekend and so did Shadd.

          "Girl I heard Aubrey is going to be at All Star Weekend too, so what are you going to do?" Desaundra asked me standing in the door way. I hadn't really been worried about Aubrey. " I don't know. I haven't really been focused on any that bullshit. I hope we get through this with no problems." I said.

     "Well boo you know I got your back. Bitch won't be running up while I'm around." Sauna said walking down the hall. I loved Desaundra she was the sister I always wanted. She was over protective and she didn't take no shit. Her and Shadd fit each other because they both had the same attitudes. Shadd said he was going to propose this weekend so that was gonna be awesome. Desaundra doesn't have a clue to the things he has planned for her.

     I heard my phone ringing and I knew who it was already. I didn't want to speak to Aubrey right now. I was bout to get in the shower when I heard the doorbell ring. "Desaundra can you get that?" I yelled out to her. She didn't answer and the bell was still ringing. She must have left so I grabbed a towel and went to the door. There he stood with a smile on his face.

       "Aubrey what do you want? I have things to do so can this wait?" I asked him kinda annoyed. Why was he here? He walked in right pass me like he didn't just hear a word that I said. He sat down on the couch and motioned for me to come sit with him.

     This was the set up so I sat across from him. " I been thinking a lot and I miss you so much. I was really happy and complete with you. What about us starting over?" He said. "What about us Aubrey? I been thinking too and we just aren't right for each other right now. I don't think your over Dawn or any of the other chicks you deal with for that matter. You need to make sure your ready to be committed because I don't think you are." I said trying not to hurt his feelings. I loved Aubrey and his dick was great, but I don't need the drama that comes with Drake.

     He looked at me like I had two heads. " You can be out here fucking them niggaz Omari and August like some little groupie bitch but you can't fix us? Fuck you Diamond you ain't shit but another video hoe." He said getting up to leave. I couldn't believe what he just said. He has never talked to me like that and this just confirms it's best we stay apart. I was about to go off but I just left it alone. He turned around and threw something on the floor and slammed the door. I picked up the red box and it had my engagement ring in it that he gave me before but the stone was way bigger. All I could do was blink back the tears. He was serious. I ran after him. I had to try and catch him cause I did love him.

Mean while in Desaundra's apartment....

       I just sat there looking at the stick in disbelief. I was pregnant again. This can't be happening right now. I have so much going on and being pregnant would slow me down. My clothing line, my Curvy Girls Rock campaign all would come to a stand still. Now I know you been hearing about Shadd and Desire making power moves but I do too. I'm a very successful business woman. What am I going to do?

  I heard the door open and close. I knew it was Shadd. I have to tell him I can't keep this baby. "Babe where are you?" I heard him calling from the hallway. " I'm in the bedroom!" I yelled back. It's now or never and I never been one to beat around the bush so here goes nothing.

      " Shadd I'm pregnant and I can't keep this baby. I have a lot going on and so do you and right now we are not in a place where we can afford another child." I said in one breath when he came in the room. He was looking at me like he was trying to register everything I just said. He came and sat next to me and wiped the tears away that I didn't even know were falling. " You keeping my baby and you can still work. That's why you have assistants to help you out. I was going to wait til All Star Weekend to do this but now just seems like the right time. I love you and I always have. I know I fuck up sometimes but you still take me back. Will you marry me?" He asked getting on one knee. He had the biggest yellow canary diamond I had ever seen. I looked in his eyes for along time and saw the man I had love all my life for the first time in a long time. He was a great father and he was an amazing man. He has made a few mistakes but nobody is perfect. " Yes I will marry you." I said crying like a baby. I guess I'm having another baby and getting married. Who could ask for more?

Desire and Aubrey...

       I had caught up to Aubrey before he got on the elevator. " Listen Aubrey I love you but you hurt me more than once. I have never slept with any other man but you. Let's start off as friends again then see where it goes." I said to him. He grabbed me and kissed me so deeply it felt like we were floating up off the ground. " I can't be just your friend because I love you to much for that. So for me it's all or nothing." He said before getting on the elevator. I just stood there and watched the doors close. Why did he have to make this so difficult? Why is it always all or nothing with him?