•Broken•

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The next fews day felt the longest for me i kept my head down eventually word got out i was alive and people stopped by left and right. Though everything felt numb to me i managed a few fake smiles to everyone. Since i agreed to stay awhile i decided to get an apartment something temporary so my parents could have there space. "Looks good" Angel smiled as he walked into my apartment "I try" i joke as we sit on the couch "So i know you remember our traditon halloween party every year you gonna come through?" He smiled "of course i am regardless" i sighed he could tell i was bothered "Have you talked to him?" Angel sighs " No and its better that way what he say hurt angel i thought he would be happy but turns out i dont even know him anymore " i feel the tears leave my eyes "But can you blame him jaz you died in his arms when we arrived to the hospital he was clenching his bloody shirt he ran to me crying uncontrollably even your parents held him they told him it wasnt his fault and before i knew it he got up saying he needed air and was gone" Angel says hugging me "Look i know things are different now but it doesnt mean we cant forgive i know Ez he is blind right now look come to the party have fun like old times with or without him" he playfully jokes "Fine but only on one condition?" I laugh "Let me guess no keg stands?" He laughs i smirk "No ill do keg stands but you gotta promise me that you'll make sure things dont get out of control with him" i laugh and angel nods "Promise! But im holding you to the kegs stands!" He says playfully i laugh "You work tonight?" He questions i shake my head no "Lets go out celebrate you coming back?" He smiles "Ok im with that" i smile "Ok deal ill go get ready then ill pick you up at 9?" He smiles and i nod shortly after he leaves i grab my keys and decide i wanna go let out some frustration at the gym.

I feel the sweat run down my face as i punch the punching bag i keep hitting it my knuckles burn and i can see the splits where the blood begins to form. I continue hitting it not caring about anything around me i feel the numbness take over and im sure ive messed up my knuckles by now. I begin panting knowing i need water i stop and grab my water bottle not before seeing him he stands there hitting his punching bag im not sure how long i stood there staring at him until he turned to see me i frowned and grabbed my bag walking out he didn't follow me and i was thankful i quickly checked the time seeing it was 8 i rushed home to shower my knuckles burnt as i washed them once i rinsed off i quickly got out drying my body i slipped on my undergarments and grabbed some shorts and my long sleeve olive shirt then threw on my knee high boots. I did natural makeup and straightened my hair not long after i grabbed my things and walked outside only to see angel on his bike smiling "Your joking right?" I say he laughs  "Nah come on princess" he smirks handing me a helmet i frown grabbing it putting it on and climbing on back as he starts his bike "Stop pouting jaz its gonna be fun" he chuckles driving off  we quickly arrive maybe 30 minutes later. I get off the bike taking the helmet off "Told you it isnt that bad" Angel joked i smile as we walk inside he introduces me to the club and i take a seat inside the booth as the bring beers i grab one taking a big swig "Rough day?" Angel laughs motioning my cut up knuckles i nod.

The door chims and i look up in he walks in his same colored shirt as me i curse under my breath chugging my beer before getting up to get another he notices my presence and gets stiff  i order a shots downing two before grabbing my beer. As i approach the table i see Him and Angel talking and he quickly calms down as the guys bring more beers. "Fix this shit now Ezekiel!" Angel says before getting up to go to the restroom i sit there in silence the tension getting to me and i feel the anxiety kicking in and i quickly get up grabbing a cigarette from one of the guys before walking outside i light it taking a hit and exhauling.

I jump as my phone rings seeing its my boyfriend Oscar i smile answering it "Hey babe" i smile "Jasmine wtf where you thinking leaving without telling me?" He shouts and i frown "My family needed me oscar and i couldnt get ahold of you i never can!" I say angrily "Whatever where are you?" He says coldly "Im out having drinks with some friends" i sigh "Must be nice fuck me right im done with this conversation jasmine go ahead be a slut" he shouts and im taken back and lose it "Fuck you!" I spit hanging up and i lost it punching the wall making my knuckles bleed more. Its isnt tell i see Ezekiel standing there looking at me with sad eyes again. I felt pathetic at that moment "Punching walls isnt gonna solve anything jaz" he says motioning for me to follow him i sigh walking behind him i see angel smile and i flip him off as he burst laughing we make our way to some private room in the back. I sit on the counter as he grabs a towel and some gauze for my hand he begins cleaning them not a word said as he wraps them his hands sending sparks through mine. He sighs looking up at me his hands on both sides of me gripping the counter. "Look i dont blame you for what you said back there at the graveyard i deserved it what i said shouldnt of been said you were right i did change i mean i lost my bestfriend My mom all in the same time and it killed me i hated myself i didnt sleep cause every night i closed my eyes i heard your screams i saw your lifeless body" he pauses as i see tears in his eyes "I was in a very dark place and i forgot who i was i didnt have you there to keep me in check i lost all my sunshine and happiness you and my mom took it with you" he chuckles "I know i sound like a little girl but im so sorry for all of this i can forgive myself i just cant when i saw your face the other night i thought i saw an angel and i couldnt believe it until angel told me" he lets tears fall "Ive missed you so much Jaz " he sobs and i cant hold back i grab his face in my hands "I forgive you Ez im here now ok?" I smile he smiles wiping his tears as he wraps his hands around my waist twirling me around us chuckling he sits me down "New start ok?" I smile and he nods im not sure why but i felt relief and happiness again as we walked to the table angel smiles "The gang back together?" He says hopeful "Yeah gangs back together" i smile looking at ezekiel who is getting us drinks.

The rest of the night goes by fast nothing but laughter and smiles as we get ready to leave i say my goodbyes and look at Ezekiel whos getting on his bike next to Angel. "Hey Ez why dont you take Angel here home?" He smirks and i look at the ground not sure what he would say. "Lets go Angel" he smirks handing me a helmet and i smile like an idiot getting on back once again feeling the sparks in my body ignite. We drive in silence not tension but comfortable silence as soon as we get on the freeway it begins to pour rain as the rain soaked us. "Ez you cant drive in this where are we gonna go till it calms down?" i say bitting my lip he nods exiting the freeway and goes down some more roads at this point were drenched as we approach some apartments he parks and we bolt for the entrance once we reach the door he unlocks it. "Welcome to my place we can chill here till it stops" he sighs taking his boots off me doing the same "Get undressed" he says walking to his room i frezze "What!?" I squeal he laughs returning with a big shirt and sweats handing me them "Restrooms to the right" he points down the hall i quickly get myself out of my soaked clothes slipping his on taking in his scent of his cologne i smile walking out to the kitchen to find him in sweats himself shirtless i glup as he turns to me grabbing my clothes and tossing them in the dryer. Me just staring at his chest he notices clearing his throat and i look up embarrased "hungry or thirsty?" He smiles i laugh "Both" i grin he shakes his head figures he grabs two more beers and some snacks for me as we make our way to the living room he hands me a blanket and we sit there in silence my legs crossed him staring at me "I just cant believe it im just so happy" he smiles scooting closer "Two years without you was honestly the worst" he frowns i do too "hey lets not think about it lets play a drinking game like back then" i smirk "Your gonna get drunk" he smirks "So?" I smirk "Careful what you wish for gonna get yourself in trouble" he winks and my heart flutters.

Not maybe two hours later were drunk and im laughing uncontrolably that is until my mind drifted to where it all happened and i felt everything close in my anxiety attack came in faster than i thought and i got up walking quickly to the restroom and Ezekiel followed i couldnt i just fell to the floor sobbing my eyes out as Ezekiel scooped me up holding me close "shhhh its ok its ok everything is ok im never gonna let that happen again i promise" he said softly once i calmed down i look up him staring at me my back against the wall  his hands on my waist and thats when i felt it again the warm fuzzy feeling maybe its cause we were drunk but he stared at me up and down "So beautiful" he whispered as i bit my lip nervously then before i knew it he pushed off the wall my stomach dropping wishing it turned into something more though. "Here sleep in my bed ill take the couch" he smiled and i nodded i think he felt it too cause we quickly parted ways.

The next morning i woke up smiling realizing that i had my bestfriend back i walked to the living room to find him laying there on his phone. "Morning Angel" he smiled getting up "Morning" i grinned he handed me my clean clothes telling me to keep what i was in i smiled. Once we made breakfast and ate we cleaned up and he drove me home once we reached my place he got off his bike and hugged me tightly kissing my forehead "Ill see you at the halloween party ok?" He smile i nodded and walked towards my door as he stopped me placing my necklace on my neck again before kissing my cheek and taking off i watched him leave in silence. As i walked inside i sighed everything seemed to be turning around the only thing i couldnt place together were my feelings how i felt