I heard Randy call my name softly waking me up. I looked at him and smiled while I stretched. Randy took me out to eat and to see a movie.
It was great I had fun but it felt like we were just hanging like friends rather than boyfriend and girlfriend.
He didn't even officially ask me out. Yeah we held hands, kissed and all that but I felt nothing.
The first time we kissed was great and I liked it but now, every time he kisses my head or hugs me I think about what would happen if Roman and I were together.
It makes me feel so horrible inside because Randy likes me! Randy is a sweet human being and I don't want to hurt him. But if I stay with I'm also hurting myself.
"Thank you for tonight" I wrap my arm around his waist as we walk up my driveway
We came to a stop at my door and he removed his arm from my shoulder. He placed his hand on my face and leaned in for a kiss. We kissed briefly before I pulled away slowly.
"Of course, goodnight love see you tomorrow" He kissed my head and walked to his truck
I walked into my house and went straight to my room. My family should already be asleep, I hope they are. I stripped away my clothing and wrapped a towel around myself.
I walked out to the bathroom and turned on the shower. My thoughts drifted to Roman, wondering what he's doing, if he's doing ok, etc. I really can't believe I have feelings for that boy.
NEXT MORNING
"So you're just gonna break up with him?" Paige said
"First of all we're not even dating and second of all I have to think of a way to let him down easy and tell him I just wanna be friends." I shake my head
"What about the samoan juggernaut? What's gonna happen with him? Are you gonna tell him?"
"I don't know Paige!" I sigh
"Tell Nikki break up with him for you" Paige shrugged
"No!"
"What? It's just a suggestion" she shrugged "Nikki told me you used to break up with all her other boyfriends"
I opened my mouth but quickly shut it when I saw Roman and Summer swapping spit.
"Get a room!" Paige shouted at them with no hesitation
Summer pulled away and licked her lips smiling.
"Shut it pig, you're just jealous" summer held Roman close
Romans back was faced towards us, he didn't even look back.
"Why would I be jealous of you?" Paige crossed her arms
Summer scoffed "You may not be jealous but I know she is" she nodded her head towards me
I rolled my eyes "Oh I'm not jealous, I actually feel sorry for Roman. I'm not the one getting herpes, he is." I smile at her as she glared at me
"oof" Paige mumbled
"Well if you excuse us, we actually wanna get to class because we don't wanna be 16 and pregnant." I say giving her a fake smile
Paige and I walked right past her unfazed as she called us slutty bitches.
"Damn Breezy! Never knew it was like that." Paige laughed
I shake my head surprised yet proud of myself for saying something like that. Paige and I walked into class and sat down. My mind was all over the place at the moment. I have to admit that it hurt to see him with Summer again.
Roman walked in as the bell rang and I immediately noticed the hickeys he had on his neck.
today is gonna be absolutely terrific!
•••
4/2/2020
I really do be missing these three together 😞
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