Dear Andy ➳ Randy [✓]

fem

dear Andy

we filmed the video for high hopes today.

i have to admit, it was nice to get out of the flat for a bit...i almost forgot about everything.

although it's weird. it's weird to see the world just going on as normal, like there's nothing wrong. i don't see how i can be normal when you're not around

you're always on my mind. i couldn't forget about you.

all i kept thinking was how wrong what we were doing was. how wrong it was without you.

we had to film a vlog as well...explaining why you weren't there. it took us nearly 3 hours because i kept breaking down.

i couldn't talk about it, because everytime i got flashbacks to seeing you on the floor in the bathroom.

i hate this. i hate it so much. you're my rock, andy, i need you so much...

love
Ryan

-X-

hey. again sorry ive been pretty dead. schools really busy and ive literally been back two weeks and im already involved in 3 separate bits of drama. please help me lmao

-Lauren