Tyler sighs as he fastens his tie "Maybe not." He tosses it back in the drawer. So far he's tried on five different buttoned up shirts and ended up stuck choosing between two types of jeans. He wanted to look smart for his date. He thought of his date. He gripped his throat. "Maybe if I pray, tonight will turn out amazing and I will be thankful, hear that God? I will be thankful." He mumbles to himself and sits at the foot of his bed. "Dear God, I'm so nervous for this date with Chris, I know you're always there for me man. I'm thankful. Please make sure tonight is amazing, please?" He felt desperate but he wanted tonight to be the best.
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Tyler leaves and sees Chris leaning against a streetlight, he was dressed up casual unlike Tyler who was balancing strongly between almost casual and very formal.
"Hey." Chris smiles, the cool air danced with his breath.
"Hey." Tyler smiled and stood away from the light to make his blush go unnoticed. "So what's the plan?"
Chris smiled holding two tickets for a movie. "You said you went to see this with your sister a couple weeks ago, and she made you watch it another three more times right?" He laughs.
Tyler grunts "Seriously? Unbelievable!" He yells adding a slight giggle. "Love ya, Ty." Chris grabs Tyler's hand. Tyler grips his throat adding a laugh.
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"Honestly man, I can't explain to you how much I hate that movie." Tyler shakes his head with disapproval as they leave the theatre. "You love it really, don't deny it." Chris looks at Tyler as he smiles. "No, man honestly, it's a terrible movie." Tyler glares jokingly "I know, that's why I got the tickets; I wanted to see how much you hated it. It's pretty funny if you ask me." He nudges Tyler in the arm laughing.
They both sit at a park bench eating the remnants of the popcorn. It was quiet. Tyler grips his throat and gulps subtly. "So Tyler, what's your favourite season?" Tyler looks over "My favourite season?" He snorts "Yeah, like, winter or summer or?" Chris looks down at the popcorn. "Probably summer, no, spring or fall... Winter makes me sad and I get real bad migraines during summer." Chris laughs "So spring or fall then?" They share a laugh, and then it's quiet, except for the comforting crunch of popcorn.
This date is going well until Tyler has the visions of Chris, he's noticed them before but they were only minor and he could always push it back, but when it's visions of his boyfriend in horrid and gruesome situations, it's too much for him to handle.
"His blood, imagine it all over your carpet." The voices will say.
Tyler flinches and gropes his neck, "What's wrong?" Chris asks, "Hm?" Tyler stares ahead "Oh, it's nothing; I've just never been on a date before." Chris smiles and pulls Tyler in from the side, placing his arm over his shoulder. "You're a weird one, Tyler." "I'm not weird!"
Silence.
"Don't call me that."
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"Look Ty, she's just a friend." Chris sighs and wipes the coffee counter, Tyler grunts and paces back and forth then slams his hands on the coffee shop windows, making Chris jump. "Do you think I'm stupid? You never hang out with me anymore, I know we've been dating for just over a year now and you want to hang out with others, but it's me, Chris!" Tyler slumps into a chair "I need constant reassurance and attention from you, but you don't talk to me for days at a time, you're always hanging out with her!" It's quiet. "Tyler, she works here, we're just friends." Tyler stares at him "Anyway be quiet, she's at the back and she'll be back soon. Honestly she's lovely, don't make her feel bad, Ty." Tyler shrugs.
"Slam his face on the counter." Oh God.
"Whatever." He shrugs "I'll be in the car."
Tyler sits in the car and waits, he turns on the radio and dives into whatever song plays, he can't think of anything bad. Tap tap he looks at Chris who's signalling to put the window down. "Hey Ty, I'll be walking her home actually, her dad can't pick her up and it's getting late so-" "Fine." Tyler puts the window back up and drives off.
"Stupid! Stupid! Stupid!" He slams his hands on the wheel "He's mine, he's meant to be mine!"
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Tyler parks on the curb right next to the bench they had their first date, he stares at the wooden piece of crap that Tyler remarks, with no feeling expressed on his face. "I hate this feeling. Why do I have to feel anger so easily? It drives me insane; I want to do terrible things like this." He rests his head on the wheel. He looks up, down the road he finds Chris, and he's with her. She must live around here then. He watches as Chris walks her to her door, they chat, and then he kisses her. Tyler's eyes widen as he witnesses the truth before him. He continues to stare as Chris makes it down the road.
"Do it." They say.
"I'm getting to it." He says.
Chris takes a step off the curb and Tyler's engine starts, "Do it!" They yell "I am!" Tyler cries as he pushes down on the pedal. And he goes blank; he keeps driving with a man on his windshield, and then breaks. Tyler gets out the car and looks around for witnesses, no one. How did no one witness this? He looks at Chris' body that has rolled off the windshield, "Oh God!" Tyler screams, and then looks for anyone who is now a witness, again, no one. How? "I need to take you to the hospital, I'm so sorry." Tyler cries handling Chris into the backseat.
Tyler drives and drives, he passes the hospital, he keeps going, and he looks only ahead. "Right, do I Breaking Bad this? No! I can't just take him home and hack him up and put him in my bathtub and dissolve him with acid, no!" He taps vigorously on the wheel "Maybe dump him in the woods? No! I'll be caught out." Tap tap tap. He grips his throat. He stops at the woods and drags the body to the lake, "Well done, Tyler." They say "Not now, please, not now." He looks around for something heavy, a bunch of rocks to stuff in Chris' pockets. He drags the body until he's waist deep in water and plunges the body down. "What the fuck, what the fuck have I done?" He waddles through the water and sits beside the lake, he looks up at the stars, "God," he clasps his hands together "I'm going to hell aren't I?"
