Wanting you..

13.

An; so I'm doing the way I write different now. I find it way easier, and it looks better to me:) so sorry, if you're a new reader.

I groaned, as I woke up to another day without Jacob.

So I thought...

I got up and looked in the mirror realizing my hair was a mess, and my eyes had dark blue bags underneath them.

I sighed, letting my body fall down into the desk chair beneath me.

I softly cried, as I do basically every other day.
'what is so wrong with me?!' I angrily asked myself.

I can't stand this anymore, I didn't need to. I need to make things right, or at least try.

I didn't care how I looked, maybe if I show up at his house like this, he will see how much I desperately need him.

I took a deep breath, and hesitated to walk out my door, but I did.
I ran out of my house, and down to Jacobs.

I didn't bother to knock, no body was home besides him anyways.

I slowly walked in, and up the stair case.

'cause you are, the only thing that I got right..no. One day, when the sky is fallen, ill be standing right next to you. Right next to-' I heard him softly sing, before his voice cracked and he broke down.

I bit my lip, and dropped my head in guilt.
I didn't like it when he cried, even though I rarely ever seen him cry.
He always wanted to seem like the type, that if he cried he would seem 'weak'..

A few tears begged to escape but I refused to let them, as I opened the door.

He slowly looked up at me, before looking down again.
'what are you doing here?' he asked, trying to hide the fact he was crying.

'baby, what do you mean? I can't stay away forever..' I softly spoke, not knowing what he wanted to hear.

I watched as he shook his head, and stood up.
He sighed, not looking at me.

'why?' he asked.

'jacob..' I said, not wanting to talk about it.

'Why?! Why.. do that?' Jacob had ask, his voice trembling at the end

'j-jacob, I told you already. But you just never listen to me.' I had told him

He didn't dare say anything, for some odd reason.
I sighed, sitting down on his bed.

'jake, I thought it was you. I did, and I swear on our relationship I would never, ever.. do anything to hurt you.' I responded.

'how the fuck can you mistake me for someone else?! Huh.' he said, aggressively.
He's, never talked to me that way.

I jumped a little, as his voice became angry while talking to me. I bit my lip, tears filling my eyes.

'i was fucking drunk, okay?!' I yelled back, standing up.

'you promised not to leave me, and you did. I told you parties weren't my thing, b-but you insisted on going anyways. I drank too much, and-'

'enough, Kenzie! you kissed that boy, you did. You chose to drink more then what I did, I didn't make you..' he said turning around and resting his head against the wall

He held his eyes with his hands, and I slowly walked over to him and placed my hand on his back.

I rested my chin on his shoulder, rubbing his back gently.

'i-im sorry, okay j? It meant nothing, a-a-and I understand that you're angry with me, I would be too.. just don't ignore me anymore. Please baby..'
I whispered in his ear.

He didn't say anything, nor did I expect him to.

I shook my head pulling away.
I grabbed his shoulder, and turned him around.

'i miss you..' I stated.
He finally looked me in the eyes, giving me a weak smile.

'we can take time to fix things, I just don't want to this to end..'

He looked at me, and furrowed his eyebrows.
'dont want what to end?' he softly asked.

I couldn't help but to softly smile.

I wrapped my hand around his neck, and caressed my thumb against his cheek.

'this..'  I had told him, as i leaned in for a kiss. He kissed back, making me smile even more.

Eventually he pulled away, and I couldn't help but to stare at the boy in front of my eyes.

'i love you.' he had told me, making my heart drop.

Just like the very first time he had told me that.

'i love you. way more, rolf Jacob sartorius.'

I had said, making him softly chuckle.
He looked at me for a few more seconds, before pulling me in for a tight hug.

'please never leave me..' he said in my ear.

I shook my head, and laughed at him.
'i will be by your side, until the ends of the Earth baby. You're mine, and nothing will ever separate us..'

'And you wanna know what?'  I asked him, waiting for him to answer.

'hmm?' he softly hummed to me, causing me to bit my lip

'you're a a way better kisser, than that fucking boy, yeah?' I stated, trying to make him feel better, in a cocky sort of way.

'you do know, I truly believe you.. I always will.' he had spoke to me.

I looked up at him, confused.
'what do you mean?¿'

'i believe you. I believe that you didn't mean it, and I can't be you too much to even let that affect this.' he sweetly smiled.

I giggled softly, and walked over to his bed. I patted down beside me, motioning him for him to sit beside me.
As he did, I looked over at him.
He smiled at me, not saying anything.

'i can make it up to you. you know, for being away so long..' I trailed off, placing my hand on his leg.
His breathe hitched, as he looked at me.

I knew he needed this, and I wanted to make it up anyways.

'lay back..' I cooed out, watching him do as I say.

Okay, so I wrote this chapter the same day as chapter 12:) I'm gonna try to become more active, I'll just have to put in more time.
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