Wanting you..

12. (a lil sad)

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Thoughts ran through my head, as I wasn't sure what to do.

Jacob doesn't even want to talk to me anymore, barely.
Not really, ever since that night.

No matter how much apologizing i do, or how much I tell him it was a mistake, it didn't mean anything .

He refuses to listen to my cries, and begs.
I need him, and these weeks without him, have been miserable.

All I've been able to do is lay in bed and cry, a'waiting for his call..or maybe just his voice.
Only thing going through my head, is that damn boy, from that fucking night.

Not all of it, was entirely my fault.
He begged and begged that I went, going on and on about 'how much fun we were going to have'.

I gave in to his begging, and I went. Now look where that got us.

Our relationship is on the line, and I don't even know how much longer it will last.
I just pray, that the little bit of Hope and love we have, will hold this together.

Days. Weeks. Since I've heard his voice. Since I've felt him against me. I barely see him out anymore. But when he is. He walks past me, as if he doesn't know me. Or ever wanted to.

I need to make this right, I just can't bring myself to do it. He won't listen, that was always a slight problem we've had.

He plunged the thought of me being 'too pretty and perfect' for him, that we would always be. . . Alright.

That kiss. That damn kiss, is the cause of this.

We knew we were too young to drink at that party, but we still did. We were dumb, and thought that we would be 'cool'.

It drifted us apart.

But I still wanna believe he still loves me, and if i try talking.. he'll come running back.
That's what he promised, anyways.

I really didn't mean for that night to happen, it just did.

It just did..

I shouldn't let one fucking mistake, ruin us. Let alone, ruin what we had, or what was to come.

He was my lover, and my protector. and he knew that, he was proud of it.

But maybe not anymore, maybe I'm just the girl he fell in love with, and can't get away from.

That's what my head tells me. I can't think otherwise.

He didn't deserve this, and all because of that one night, this Happened.

Flashback:

'Come on baby, it'll be fun!' jacob said. As he grabbed my hands.

I sighed, and shook my head. 'i don't know jacob, parties aren't my thing..' I spoke softly, looking down.

'we need this, we need a break. a time to let loose, and just, you know.. have fun.' he stated.

I knew i couldn't say no to him, and i didn't.

'damn you. J..'
I grinned, looking down.

'pleaseeeeeeeee' he exaggerated, giving my puppy dog eyes.

I groaned, playfully pushing him back.
'fine, but only because I love you!' i had said.

'YESSS!!' He happily screamed

'but only under, one condition?' I asked.

'hmm?' he hummed, running his hands down my thighs

'you don't leave my side.' I softly demanded.

Once we had gotten to the party, his friends greeted him. Afterwards, we partied for a few hours

By then, I only had just a few drinks, along with jacob.

I decided to drink a few more, until I felt a pair of hands on my waist.
He had dark brunette hair, making me smile.

'j-jacob, hiiiii' I slurred, being brought to the counter top.
The boy got between my legs, kissing neck.

'im not Jacob, babygirl, but I'll be anyone you want me to be tonight.' he groaned in my ear as i pulled him up to me.

He smashed his lips into mine, rubbing my thighs. 'j-j-jay..' I whimpered, as he kissed me harder.

'Kenzie, what the fuck?!?' I heard a familiar voice speak, of both anger and hurt. I Gasped, as my blurry eyes were brought to the tall figure

'j-jacobb?' I asked, looking at both boys.

I jumped off the counter, walking over to him. He gently shoved me back, causing sorrow to fill my veins.

'dont play dumb, Kenzie.. I saw you!' he yelled.
'b-baby, I thought that was you!!' i quietly spoke, walking over to him.

'yeah, fuck you. I'm outta here.' he said, a few tears leaving his eyes, right along with him as he left the house.

I broke down, realizing what happened. I ran out of the house, trying to find Jacob, but he already left...

okay, so kind of a plot twist. I thought I needed to bring some kind of tension into my book. Don't worry everything will be back to normal:)
All sweet, happy, and loving Jacob & Kenzie again❣️
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