It's been a while...
I should've prepared
But I can never tell when you're gonna show your nasty little head
We've been together for a while now huh?
It may have only been a couple months
But I feel like I've known you forever
You make me feel numb
The best and worst kind of dissophoria
I feel unattached to reality with you
So high above the clouds that nothing matters
So unattached in fact
That I forget who I am
That I mistake your voice for mine
That I no longer have any control over my actions
In those times, I whisper...
Please...
I beg of you to have mercy on me...
I have forgotten who I am... if there was any me to begin with
I whisper these words repeatedly
As I have fought your war and lost...
I've spiraled down the rabbit hole once again
And no one even noticed
I whisper simply...
Please...
