Second love | jirosé

[Chapter 30] "Do you want to or not?"

I rush back to my room not ready spend another minute there.

I open the door slightly, peeking to find Jimin.
His hand clutches on to mine and I yelp in surprise. Jimin pulls me inside and my eyes turn round.

He walks closer and I take steps backwards, leaning against the wall eventually.

"Can we finish what we started?" Jimin whispers. I blush scarlet.
He supports himself by leaning on the wall, trapping me in between his arms once again.

I take a deep breath, ready to tease him.

"You started,"I correct.

"Okay, I started, so can we continue what I started?" He smirks.

I peck his lips, wriggling away from his hold easily as he stays shocked.

I get under the sheets and ask him to turn off the lights.

"I'm sorry, I'm not in the mood for all this, I need to sleep,"I lie.

I wanted to oblige but I was scared. No reason, just that it it felt wrong. I wasn't ready.

Oh no! The thing which mom gave... I need to dispose it. What do I do?

Jimin walks back to the bed with a frown.
'I'm sorry' I mouth.

"It's okay, I don't want to force you,"he brightens up a little. I nod and he lays down beside me.

This is my chance. I remove it out of my pocket and place it slowly in the drawer in the bedside table. Closing the drawer later on.

I try my beast to make minimum noise but the little sounds of me wriggling around causes Jimin to shift a little. I turn around to face him immediately.

"What were you doing?"he asks.

"Nothing,"I say immediately.

"Whatever,"he mutters before closing his eyes. I sigh in relief.

My eyelids soon feel heavy and I drift off into dreamland.

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I wake up in cold sweat. My body trembling. I had a nightmare, a different one but with the same ending. It seemed so real that I still can't convince myself to believe that it wasn't. I look around frantically, catching a glimpse of the clock.

2:30 it reads.

Jimin shifts a little bit but he soon goes back to sleeping.
I search for the water bottle, I need something to calm myself. With trembling legs I manage to get outside the room.

I switch on the kitchen lights before walking toward the fridge to find some cold water.

I hold onto the wall for support, it just felt right. I knew I was weak and I needed support but these kind of things happened often. I had gone through so many similar nights and I had survived. Though, I was free from these nightmares for the past few months. They had now returned to haunt me.

Pulling open the fridge door with all my might I manage to gulp down some water.

I find myself a place to sit and take deep breaths, trying my best to calm myself down.

I try to rewind everything that I had seen but just like the sparks of fire that burn away within seconds my mind doesn't seem to recollect anything. I had forgotten what I was afraid of.

This puts me to ease.
I see a vague sight of someone walking towards me and this tenses my muscles. I sit up straight. Soon I figure out who it is.

"Why are you here at this hour?" Jimin asks with a husky voice.

"Can I ask you the same thing?" I ask, relaxing and getting more comfortable because of his presence.

"Can you stop replying to my questions with a question and for once answer?" He says sternly.

"I-I just had a bad dream and I needed some water to calm myself,"I mutter.

"Are you okay?" His tone change within seconds as he sits beside me.

I nod, smiling.

"Let's go back, yea?" He says softly.

He helps me up and I follow him.

Jimin doesn't go to sleep immediately. He lays down beside me, holding my palm as he draws soothing circles with his thumb.

It takes me all the willpower to sit back up and Jimin looks up at me confused. He does the same.

"What's wrong?" He asks softly.

"Can we continue what we started?"

"What?"he asks confused.

"What we had started before we went to sleep?" I say looking at my palm, too flustered to look up. I din't know why but I wanted to. I din't need any reason. As thought I had gained some unimaginable power from drinking water, I was not scared anymore. You could even say that I was eager.

"Rosé," I smile, " one moment you are all scared and meek and the next you turn into someone who I have never seen before... how do you do that?"he continues.

"Do you want to or not?"

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A/N: Thank you fr 4K reads💓
Also, please don't expect smut cause I'm too young to write that( y'all are probably elder than me).