• 20 •

149 7 0
                                    

Before today, I told myself I need to stop over doing it, I need to stop pushing myself to breaking point, I need to stop pushing myself to my limits mentally. But today I realised I need to bury myself in work, to over do it, and put myself under unnecessary pressure to work properly mentally and physically. It was how I was brought up, coming from a long line of workaholics, I guess it has a bigger hold over me then I want to notice. Sometimes I'm trying to just grab a breathe of fresh air and hope just knowing there will be an end. But I think I thrive in these kind of situation, where I can barely think straight. It helps when I can focus on one thing that I can eventually understand. Then many things that will probably take my whole life just to make a little break through. So I'm going to continue to work hard, and bury myself in work, but I also need to be able to stand in the sun and appreciate what I have in front of me.

Overthinking Where stories live. Discover now