How could I have done this to you, to both of you.
I made you two feel like you were the one's to blame for all of this when it wasn't even your fault it was all mine.
If only I had stopped myself..
no..
if only I didn't pick up that lighter in the first place none of this would have happened.
You would still be alive and she would still be with me.
Instead, I've lost everything.
Everyone that was precious to me, the only two people in this mad world that I cared about,
that I loved,
the only two people that understood me..
now I'm all alone and it's all my fault. I'm the only one to blame.
Now I'm suffering for the pain I've caused you two.
This is my punishment, being alone for the rest of my life.
No one else in this hopeless world can help me now...
Sometimes I would still play that song, our song.
The one you loved to play with me on the piano.
The first one I taught you when you asked me to help you learn how to play.
I can still hear that song playing in my head.
The constant whistling will never leave.
It's the burden I'll have to live with.
Every time I hear you I try to run towards you..
Only to fail miserably.
Your accident was my mistake..
The biggest mistake of my life
It was my fault..
You were the first time I ever loved someone so dearly...
And I've screwed everything up..
The lighter that started it all shall be the end of me..
A small flame making a big change..
