Layers of Insecurities

Chapter 8

4 months later 

Tulips p,o,v:

Mid terms exam is coming up, next week is going to be science, and math. people are going crazy well thats a lie i am going crazy, teenagers just parties and thats it they never gave a care in this world, but since i live in a life where everyone expectations falls on me i have to be the best at everything. 

During the past 4 months i have learn to come out of my shell and talked more, i become more comfortable with my friends especially with Dante we have been more comfortable with each other more, we started to share things that we like i have told him about my undying love of puppies, i started to laugh more. 

Today we are having a review before the test next week, and right now we are in science class and having a pre test which i am fine about and i completed it, math was another story Dante always help me with math, like today mr. Garcia have let us choose our partners to study with and review by ourselves and as usual Dante it next to me smiling showing his pearly white teeth.

" come on, get to studying love" he said smiling, and yes he hasn't stop calling me that, but i sometimes get annoyed, but was i really? i questioned as i stare directly into his eyes. 

"alright " i huffed out, and diverted my eyes. he chuckled and began to explain everything to me. for some odd reasons my heart is beating faster when he come close, but i ignore the feeling and continued. 

As i got lost into the work, i feel eyes looking at me but brushed away the feeling until i couldn't no longer stand it and looked to where i felt it, i was suddenly met up with a pair of ocean blue eyes staring at me and lovingly smiling down at me, he had one hand on the table and one leaned to support him, when our eyes met he didn't look away instead he just continue to stare at me, i stared back getting lost into his eyes "what is this i see? love ? longing ?"  i thought ,what is this ?why am i feeling this way ? why does he look at me with such emotion? how come i feel so.... love?, thousands of question ran through my mind, he grabbed my chin and lift it up so that he could see my face clearly he softly spoke " i promise you, that we would be together" the words were so soft that it was almost like i shouldn't be hearing it, but i did, i was stunned and didn't say anything, and so he cleared his throat and say

"lets get back to studying" he said with his deep voice, while i come back to reality

"oh yeah" i said looking down.

Next week :

The time has come it is exam day, to say i was nervous was not near to what i was feeling but overall i think i have studied and prepared for nothing, as i walk to my class with my friends i stayed silent and from the corner of my eye i saw Dante sneaking glance at me, i just ignored everyone existence because i was too nervous to have my exams, then the bell rings. Here goes nothing. 

Friday is here and i have made through every exam and to say i think i aced it, Dante have been avoiding me which hurts, he would avoid eye contact and would reply with a word or two, before he was the one who would get me to talk and now i am the one who gets him too. He was drifting apart from me, was he already bored? did he just talk with me because he pitied me ? i try not to think too much into it but it has been hard since he was the one who made me realize that i have a life to live.

Lunch came i walked with Lina to our usual seats which was outside that's where Dante have gave me the cookie, the boys had to get us lunch and if you are wondering my eating habit haven't changed much i only eat a small amount of food but i would say i have improved i can say i don't live off cookies now, as we sat down and talked the guys and the rest of my friends came into view, Dante seat was always next to mine but then he sat down in the far corner of the table he didn't even spare me glance. 

Hurt was all i felt as i looked at him, i couldn't even stand to be here as i left my lunch, got up and walked away crying. why does it hurt so much he was not even mine but why ? who am i kidding he will never consider me as friend.. as i walked away crying i have made a decision that this will be the last time that i will let anyone in my life never again. But why did i feel like my heart has been shattered ? do i really want him to love me as a friend ?.

Did i love him ?

Oh No Dante is ignoring tulip what could be the reason behind this ?? 

FIND OUT IN THE NEXT CHAPTER, WILL BE UPDATED SHORTLY ?

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