Causes of My Utopia (BTS Fanfic)

Doubts and Dreams

Yoongi's P.O.V.
"It means we are going to escape," Hana said while looking at us. I looked over at the boys who had the same expression as me before breaking into an exciting smile.

"No, we can't escape there are so many things that could go wrong plus your not even a worker anymore you're a patient!" I spoke trying to be calm. I had to be calm but the thought of going out and escaping was both amazing and terrifying. However, the boys were being the opposite as I, they were more excited.

"Taehyung told you about this didn't he's always rambling about escaping this place," spoke Tae with a smile on his face. We knew about Taehyung we like him but he scares us deeply. One minute he is cool the next he's bashing someone's head in. When Tae told us about Taehyung killing his father it was our duty for us to not make him come out under any circumstances but then again Taehyung has a mind of its own. I glanced back at Hana who told us she would be back leaving us alone to discuss it to one another. I wanted to escape but I'm scared of the outer walls in this place and I don't know how to cope with that. I needed to talk to Hana alone but now is not the time.

"So what's the plan?" Said Namjoon who sat beside Jin. Plan? Already? I got up my heart pounding in and out from my chest. I wasn't ready now. Jimin looked up at me with concern in his eyes, I didn't want him to know but my body wasn't really corresponding with my mind "Hyung are you okay?" I heard the concerning voice of Jimin but my ears echoed him out and my blood ran cold as panic rose within me. I balled my fist and looked at them.

"No! Don't you think it's a little to fast?!" I blurted out. The room had gotten silence and Hobi smile faded and replaced with a frown. He rarely frowns and when he does he's is most likely angry.

"A little too fast?" His voice was deep and quiet.

"Well yeah I mean look at us! I don't think-"

"No! We have been here for years! Yoongi Years! And you still think it's a little too fast?!" He was now yelling at me with such anger in his voice. I knew I couldn't get angry but yet I was.

"So what!?" I yelled back. "I don't think it's a perfect time!"

"So when is perfect time?" Jungkook joined in. "Huh? When is it? When we get abused once more? Or when we die?" His voice cracked while looking at me with watering eyes. I was angry not at them but at myself. Why couldn't I just tell them what I really thought? ...but yet it anger got the best of me.

"It's not like that! Ugh you know what if you really wanted to leave then you should've! You, Jin, and Namjoon! No one asked you to stay with us! If you would've just left maybe none of those things would've have happened to you!" I snapped at the young one. Jungkook flinched as the words were hitting him stabbing him through the chest. I didn't mean it..I'm sorry. I wish I had the courage to say that. Jungkook quietly got up and charged at me but Jimin and Taehyung got in between us and held Jungkook back.

"Screw you! I stayed because I looked up to you! I look up to every one of you guys! I stayed because I wouldn't survive without you! I was willing to accept anything just to be by your side! I gave up my childhood for you! Yet you wanna be selfish and say that it's to fast!?...you're just scared! Scared that if we leave we would part ways! Scared that you would be alone!" Yelled Jungkook. The five looked at both of us before looking down. At this point, my mind went blank and my body reacted on his own. The next thing I knew I was at the floor and Jungkook on top of me hitting me with is bloody knuckles. Tae and Hobi got him off while Namjoon and Jimin helped me up.
"Well, you got your wish! I hope I never see you again!" Yelled Jungkook who was bleeding. He stormed off followed by Jimin and Tae. My chest tightens and my eyes water but I wouldn't dare to cry but his words pierced right through my heart.