What happened before

Chapter 4 Ariannas pov

I'm Arianna and I'm the youngest , 14 to be exact. My whole life I've always felt and been different. All my sidling are outgoing and loud. Like Valka can easily have small talk with someone, Eans great at making people feel welcomed, and Elinor is great at public speaking. Also all three of them are not afraid to speak what's on there mind. But then there's me. I'm awful at Small talk and public speaking. Just speaking in general

I guess you can say I'm shy. I don't like to talk or say what's on my mind because I'm scarred I'll mess up and make a fool of my self. The only real way I can express my self is in my writing and drawings because if I mess up I can just erase my mistakes. I wish it was like that in real life, to bad it's not. So to stop my self from humiliation I just don't talk I guess you can say I'm mute. But not really I always talk with my siblings. It's just strangers and surprising my dad that I can't speak to without getting nervous.

I've always been different I guess I just need to except it. But there's one thing about me that's very different and if anyone where to find out, I would probably get killed. I'm Bi or bisexual . Now I know what your going to say. But your only 14 how do you know for sure? Well I've just always been like this. When I was longer, me and my sisters would read about fairly tales or hero's in the book. My sisters would always fall head over heels for the boys in the story's, and have crazy crushes on them. But me I always had crushes on the girls and boys in the story's. I just wish I could tell people. But I won't be accepted I know. I've seen it happen before. When people come out but shortly after are killed by there whole village. So I just keep it to myself.

Now I know Valka has told you that I have a cat( his names mittens) but do you know how I got him? No my father didn't get him for me. One day I was just so upset my siblings had all been told by my father how great they where at there speech's to the other kings, but my dad told me that I was awful and I needed to be more like my siblings. I was mad. I ran off to the forest and sat under my favorite tree and just cried. Why couldn't I be good enough like my siblings? Then I heard something.

When I turned there was a man. He looked discussing and he was all filthy. He came up to me and tried to talk to me. Ugh he was so creepy and I was only 10 at the time I didn't know what to do, so I just stood there. Hoping someone would come and save me. But no one was here, I was in the middle of a forest all by my self with this creepy man. Then out of no where he grabbed me and dragged me to who knows where. I screamed I screamed so loud but there was no point no one was there. Or so I thought, out of no where this white cat lounged at the creepy man and clawed his face. The man screamed and I had time to run, but before I left I grabbed the white cat.

And that's how me and mittens met. We've been best friends ever since and I take him everywhere.

I guess I should tell you guys about my girlfriend. Here name is Elise, she's the same height as me and she has long blond hair with bright blue eyes and she always wears a dark red dress. She's also 14. We met a little over a year ago. Her parents also don't know about me or the fact that she's gay. But we have so much fun with each other. We go to the village and just shop or just explore around the kingdom.

I guess I should also talk about my mother or Nora I guess. Well I don't remember her that much I was five when she died. All I really remember is how she would read stories to me or take me out.But I have a theory that she's not actually dead and she's somewhere in the world just living her life. We never really bring her up because it makes dad sad and every time we bring her up Elinor goes crazy and can't take it, probably because she's the one who found her and every time we talk about her, she always remembers her hanging body in the closet. I feel bad for her. But yea other then that I don't know much about her I wish I did but I don't.