Here's an alternate ending for the HayaSion fluff :'))
...since I have 0 ideas and just decided I'd do this anyways...even though you've all converted to ClauSion land— xD
So yeah, here's your first HayaSion request LeojZamora2 :'))
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Gusion's POV
So, 2 years since he's left. I sighed and laid back in my bed, my limbs spread out on the mattress like a starfish.
It's still difficult to think about...thinking about him hurts still and his name is just a constant reminder that he's gone off into his own life, with new priorities, new people, new interests too. Everything in his life is different from what it used to be when I was still in it.
This whole situation sounds more like he's died and I've been mourning for 2 years. But really, he's just out of my life.
At first I was in this state of denial. I didn't want to accept he was gone, it sucked, but as days passed I learned that it didn't just suck. It was devastating, crushing, just overall crippling to me.
Sure we tried to keep up with messaging, but there's only so much of that you can do before it vanishes into nothing. There's so much less a speech bubble and a train of letters connecting into words can do, compared to actually seeing the person as they talked.
The fun or weird hand gestures they made, the way their voice came out depending on how they felt in the moment or what they were talking about, just the presence of the person in general was missing and left an empty feeling in place.
I think about him on a daily basis. At first it was sorta annoying to constantly think about him and how much I wish he'd come back. But it slowly just became something I'd deal with, something that I just became okay with, a pain I got used to.
My phone rang and I glanced over at it. I sighed and shook the thoughts out of my head before answering, "Hello?"
"Hey, what you up to?" It was Zi.
"Nothing, why?"
"I just checking up on you," he pauses, "'cause of, well, you know."
"Yeah, well I'll be visiting my new therapist today. So it's fine now."
"Oh right. What did happen to Raf though?"
"She had to get transferred to aid a mute boy with some extreme anxiety. From what I saw at least."
"Saw?"
"Okay, so I might've snooped. Big deal."
"Oh come on Gusion."
"What? I need explanations." There's an audible sigh from Zi.
"And you wonder why we stopped trying to surprise you with anything."
"You can still try. Just try harder."
"Yeah thanks, very useful tip." I could basically just feel him rolling his eyes through the phone.
"Anyways, when are you going to meet your new therapist?" I checked the time and slowly let out a weird, noise.
"Uhhh...10 minutes ago...?" Did I really spend that much time lying around and being a bum over him?
"Well hurry up and get going! I'll talk to you after your session okay?"
"Yeah, okay. Thanks Zi."
"It's not a problem, see ya."
"Bye." But after he hung up instead of moving with any bit of hustle. I just rolled to the edge of my bed before groaning and pulling myself to a sitting position.
