Odd Love || c.h. {a.u.}

Chapter Four: #SING

"So, are you guys talking now or what?" Alexis asked as I sat with my feet propped up on my window seat.

It had been two days since the photo shoot and I was trying to figure out just as much as she was. I looked back at Luke who was sitting on my bed tuning my guitar. He'd been over pretty much every day since the meeting. He didn't want to leave me alone with Mikey and Holden and Calum since he knew Calum was jealous of Mikey and Holden. He was concerned about things being awkward without realizing he was making them that way. He was just an awkward giant but his awkward was better than Calum's.

"Don't you ever tune this thing?" he asked me knitting his eyebrows together.

"Oh, shut up! I haven't played since we got here." I said tossing a pillow at him.

"Oh my gosh, we have a show next week, you know that right?" he asked in shock.

I pouted at him and continued staring out the window. The sun was setting and the clouds looked like they were rosy fingers gripping the rooftops of the expensive houses. I turned back to Luke and sighed. 

"I don't even know what I want to sing yet, honestly." I said shrugging.

We were on a line-up of a few other artist but it was a 21 and over event and we had to leave as soon as we played. It was an event for some charity. I couldn't remember what for but I knew it had something to do with self harm and body love and I knew our song had to be about that. I wanted to cover something instead of doing one of our songs because I didn't know that any of them would fit.

"Well, I could help you pick something." He said shrugging as he plucked out the stripped down tune of End Up Here. I hummed along and tapped my foot.

"So, why don't you and Luke come up with something? You know, since you're both lead vocalists?" Alexis suggested.

I bit my lip and shrugged then realized she couldn't see me mumbled, "Ion-know." and went back to listening to Luke.

I did know. I wrote most of my songs with Holden and I knew Luke wrote a lot with Ash. Writing with someone who wasn't your usual writing partner felt odd. Like the first time Christian and I wrote a song together. It made it to the Deluxe version of the album but it was a little odd. The whole experience was weird since I didn't have Holden there who always knew exactly what I meant and how I wanted the songs to feel. How do you explain to someone that you want a song with glittery sounds on the background.

"What if I do SLSP and you pick some song about body love?" He asked as he stopped strumming.

"What song?" I asked him putting Alexis on speakerphone and tossing my phone on the bed as I got up moving to the mirror.

"Beautiful by Christina Aguilera?" Luke asked.

"Cliché." Alexis and I said almost all at once.

"Okay, let's rustle up the rest of the band and get Alexis on Skype and figure this out." Luke said rolling his eyes at us both.

"Okay, fine." I said grabbing my phone as I sat next to Luke.

"Call me back on the t.v. when you get down there." she said.

"Okay, bye." I said hanging up.

I leaned my head on Luke's shoulder and nuzzled my face into his neck. He hummed quietly and sighed.

"'M sorry about this all, my little penguin. We wanted to be successful and we wanted you to be successful so you were happy not so you'd stress yourself out. I wish your mom was here." Luke said quietly. "But we all promised her that we'd take care of you in America and now that she's gone, that promise will never die. No matter where any of us go."