Flashback
********"Chorongie can we play something else?" the little boy asked the little girl. They were in the garden sorrounded by animal stuff toys.
"Changsubie, later okay? We'll play my game first." said firmly by the little girl.
"But I don't want to play the priest anymore." complained the little boy.
"Who do you want to play now?"
"I want to be the groom!" the little boy said whining.
The little girl agreed reluctantly, she lined up the animals stuff toys that served us her guests in her make believe wedding. She looked around and hissed, she forgot to make someone the priest. She picked up the teddy bear and put it in front.
"Chorongie, you forgot the flowers!" the little boy said as he run to the little girl.
The little girl started walking down her make believe aisle, sorrounded by her stuff toys. She reached the end of the aisle where the little boy is standing, she grinned at him, the little boy grinned back at her.
"Okay, were done, we can play legos now." the little girl announced.
"Chorongie not yet" complained the little boy.
"We're done here, you said you want to play another game!" the little girl screamed to the little boy.
"No Chorongie, the priest has to say it." the little boy said correcting the girl. The little girl just looked at him puzzled and confused.
"He has to say, you may now kiss the bride." said the little boy as he leaned down to her, he kissed her lips.
Her eyes grow wide at what the little boy did.
"You're so dead Lee Changsub!!" she screamed.
"You always kiss Mr. Teddy when we play the wedding game!" the little boy screamed back as he run around the garden with the little girl chasing after him. Their laughter surrounded the garden as the sun starts to set.
Present
Chorong POV"So who's your first kiss Chorong Unnie?" Bomi asked me. We were at the beach with our friends, we all gather around the bonfire at the shore, playing truth or dare. She chose truth as they usually make ridiculous dares. After all, what truth would they want from her, her life is dull after all.
All eyes are on me, waiting for me to answer, I felt somebody squeezed my hands, I looked at the one who did it. It was Lee Changsub, my bestfriend since childhood. I stared at him, this is his fault, when they asked me about my first kiss, I immediately thought about the kiss he gave me when we were kids.
"Bomi-ah, you know Chorong Unnie, never had a boyfriend, how can she have her first kiss." Eunji scolded Bomi for wasting a truth question.
I excused myself after a while, still bothered by the question.
Some people might say, its just an innocent kiss done by kids who doesn't even know what it means. Why would she consider it her first kiss right? But it's special to her, any moment she has with Changsub is special to her.
I walk along the beach, with the moon and the stars as my light.
They were at Gyeongpo Beach in Gangwondo. It's the start of their semestral break and their friends decided to go to Gangwondo to celebrate.
I felt someone's arms over my shoulder, I don't have to look to know who's arms is it.
"Chorongie, are you okay?" he asked worriedly. I nodded at him. He smiled and made a derpy face at me. I pinched his cheeks in reaction.
How can I tell him how I feel when he's always like this, always right by my side, making sure I am okay. What if he didn't like it if I tell him how I feel? What if he drifted away from me, what if he distanced himself from me? I couldn't survive not seeing him, not having him near me.
I shook my head and put away my thoughts. I should be happy as it is, that he's here, that I get to hug him and be with him all the time.
We sat down on the beach, looking at the vast sea in front of us. Changsub put his arms over my shoulder and I gently put my head on his shoulder.
I stiffened for a second, like always, I have to control myself whenever he do this. I have to remind myself that it doesn't mean anything for Changsub. He's just being his usual, a good bestfriend.
I envy his ex girlfriends, they can freely hold hands with him or hug him. Well she can do that to Changsub too, but as a friend, not someone who loves him. I put my arms around him and hug him tight, hoping I could tell him how I feel.
"What's bothering you Chorongie? Changsub asked, while stroking my hair.
"Are you on your period?" he asked incredulously. I smacked his head, expect Lee Changsub to ruin the moment.
He laugh with his signature high pitched laugh. Other people might find it irritating but it's always been something I love to hear from him.
"Yah! Lee Changsub, why do you think I am always on my period." I screamed at him and pouted. He pinched my nose in return.
"I'm a girl too you know, you should stop asking me about my PERIOD!!" I screamed again in his face. He just chuckled beside me.
He still can't forget the time I had my first period and I am having period pain. He lay beside me in my bed and hold my hands, staring at me worriedly. When he understand why I am feeling down that day, he would always ask me if I am on my period whenever I looked sad or down.
Maybe I should tell him how I feel. I laugh sarcastically, because I know I can't do that, I don't have the courage to do it.
"Hmmm Okay Chorongie, just let me know if it's the time of the month and I will hold your hand as always." he said teasingly. I punch his shoulder as he laugh at me. After a while he put his arms back on mine and pull my head back to his shoulder. We return our gaze to the sea and I took a deep breath, enjoying every moment I get to spend with him.
Anyone who would see us would probably think we are lovers out on a date at the beach. In reality we are just friends. Best Friends, nothing more. And that's all we'll ever be.
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Author's Note
ChangRong has always been my frustration. Hahaha! I want them to be real. I want them together.
It's not yet fully conceptualized but I would write this as I think what I want them to do.
Covers and artwork coming soon.
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{COMPLETED} A Matter of Choice
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