Seeing In Colour (On hold)

Oneshot x Joaquin

Joaquin's POV

*beep beep beep beep*

"Ugh fuck..." I roll onto my side and slam my hand on the annoying alarm clock -which I, for one, always feel regretful for buying- and silenced it's early morning cries.

My mind flashes back to last night's events, head pounding as the hangover starts to kick in.

I shouldn't be hurting over someone like you... I shouldn't be but I am. It hurts so fucking much.  

- Flashback -

I'm stood at my long-term partner's front door, wielding a bag that contains nothing but my wallet and car keys. I got into another fight with my 'parents' but hey, what's new?

So here I am, running away for a week or two, considering it's all I really know how to do. I knock on the door a couple of times,  twisting the knob when I saw no sign of her opening the door for me.

"You really should stop leaving the door unlocked, what if it wasn't your handsome, lovable and sweet boyfriend coming in?" I yelled out jokingly.

My attempts at being a cute little shit was met with silence. 'Okay, maybe she's asleep...' I walk around the first floor in search of her, then decide to make my way upstairs after finding no one.

thud.

"You alright in there?" Silence. I stopped to listen again, another thud came but this time it was followed by a voice.

"Shit, be careful. He'll get here any minute. He texted earlier saying he fought with his parents again. Dumbass can't keep his mouth shut, which always leads to him crashing here and- Ugh, whatever. Just go before he sees you. "

My feet are frozen solid on the staircase. I can't move.

"This can't be," My knees start to give in, "She loves me. She wouldn't do this to me." I tried to convince my wary heart.

To my despair, the room to her door opened. Out walks a man covered by nothing but a towel around his waist, and what I thought was My girl in his arms.

"Joaquin..."

"I-I should go..." The man stuttered. Coward.

"That's who you're going around fucking behind my back?" I chuckled humorlessly.

"It's not what it looks like-"

"THEN WHAT IS IT THEN?!" I'm mad. I'm really bloody mad. But most of all, I'm hurt.

"I... I was meaning to talk to you about this earlier, but you never listened! All you had in mind was how you're being treated so badly by your so-called relatives. When all you really had to do was suck it up and stop being such a child!"

Please stop talking.

"I was going to break up with you sooner, I just couldn't find the chance to. I- I..."

You're breaking me.

"I don't know if I can love you anymore, Joaquin..."

Ouch. . .

I don't even try to hide my pain, I let my tears flow freely down my cheeks. "I gave you everything. Everything I had to offer; my heart, my body, my fucking soul! Just so you could be happy, and I guess I was wrong for that. I was wrong to love you so much."  She flinched, but not a lick of remorse could be seen in her eyes.

"If you don't love me anymore, then leave." I squeezed my eyes shut and let out a shaky breath, "don't say you love me unless you do."

And with that I walked out. A heavy heart and blurred vision somehow taking me to the closest bar.

– End of Flashback -

Love really is blind isn't it... I held you like the beautiful rose that you were, too blinded by you to realize that your thorns were already stabbing into me and sucking in all the life I had left.

I shook my head to clear my thoughts, regretting it immedietly when the motion made me feel even more sick.

"How was I even able to get home in one piece? I must've been drunk out of my mind..."

I got up from my bed and head towards the bathroom to do my business. In the corner of my eye, I see a small note stuck in the middle of my drawer.

“Saw you on the streets, I called your manager. Don’t worry, you’ll be able to forget and move on.

- Kai Argon”

How much trouble did I cause?

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Okay so a lillll background, this -for the mean time- has nothing to do with the current happenings of the story, althoughhhhh this is in fact an important part of Joaquin's past. It'll come together slowly, stay tuned ;)

-r&j