Heroes are human too

Chapter 5

TRIGGER WARNING : mention of self harm

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The next morning was awful. Her body was still sour from the fight and her eyes were burning her as she tried not to cry to much. She slowly made herself to class and quietly sat down. No one said "hi" but they still all saw the tired and sad Marinette.

At lunch, she was eating alone thinking about what happened. Those looks, this corpse, this video. Those memories made her tear up once again. She could here everyone talking about Ladybug becoming a murderer and stuff. But her alone time was quickly interupted by someone pushing her off the seat. When she looked up, she saw Kim, Ivan, Sabrina and Chloé laughing behind her. They started to push her around, to yell insults at her, to pour the food on her tiny head. Of course Chloé was only waiting for her to have a fit but she didn't. Instead she calmly got up and walked away. Chloé was furious because her plan didn't succeed. She ran up to the poor girl and pushed her off the stairs.

"You are strong, you are a hero," mumbled once again the trembling girl.

She got up again and went to the bathroom ignoring her aching ankle. Everyone watched her walk away while limping in the hallway. Adrien wanted to go and see her but the thought of this homophobic and cruel Marinette held him back.

Honestly, Marinette didn't know what to do. Now, no one would believer her or Ladybug, she was on her own.

Boum

Another akuma attack. Like usual she transformed and rushed to the fighting scene. As she steped foot on the roof a wave of hate and pain reached the polka dotted superhero. Once again she ignored the hate and concentrated on the fight. After a few minutes, her partner finally arrived.

"Chat, I have a plan to break free the akuma"

He looked back at her with eyes filled with disappointment and discuss, "Do you mean free the akuma or kill the victim."

"I didn't kill her," she tried to explain.

"Right and I'm your fairy god mother."

He jumped around the roofs with the help of his staff trying to hit the akuma, not listening to what Ladybug suggested. This time, the black cat hero was more than reckless. He had already used Cataclysm and his transformation was fading, leaving Ladybug alone. After taking several hits, Ladybug managed to break free the akuma and purify it. As she was struggling to catch her breath she looked at her partner and started to scold him, "Chat what was that? That was really stupid, even for you"

"Oh cut the crap Ladybug," he hissed, "I am not an object you can just use to catch akumas."

"What?! We are partners, we are suppose to work together!"

"Yeah and you always tell me what to do!"

"Well, I'm the one who comes up with the plans!"

"Then work on your own! You just did!"

"NO!" she yelled, "You are my partner, we are a team. Without you, I cannot do it..."

"Well to bad..."

He left.

Ladybug was paralysed by his words. What could she do now...Paris doesn't trust her, her friends doesn't trust her, Chat Noir doesn't trust her.

When she got back to her house, she ran past her furious father and locked herself up in her pink room. As she let out a wave of tears reach her, she grabbed a razor laying on her sink. When she grabbed the cold, metallic blade, her breathing was uneven and heavy, her entire body was shaking, her skin became more and more pale, tears burning her freckled cheeks. As she was holding back groans of anger and frustration she threw away the blade, "It is not the way, Paris needs Ladybug...", she kept repeating again and again to herself.

She wrapped up her acking ankle, putted on a Burgendee jumper and white trousers with black sneakers. She let her hair down and putted on some fake glasses she had used in drama class,"This should do it, after all no one recognises me when I'm Ladybug," she thought. She also took some money, a backpack and made sure to get enough cookie supplies and sneaked out. She turned back, not sure about her decision but decided to listen to herself anyway. At least like that her problems as Marinette would be gone.

But before deciding where to sleep, she headed to the park where her "friends" were. She quickly tied her hair into their usual pigtails and took off her glasses.

Everyone looked at her and stared at the girl starting to speak,"Like I said before, I didn't say any of those horrible things. When I hurt Chloé, I apologised right after when I realised my mistake. I have enough to deal with so don't start to bully me. I won't bother you again anyway."

A long an heavy silence too over the small group of teenagers.

"Bye."

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Message :

Boom, update. Now I'm on my holidays so I should be able to post mire even though I am still very busy.
Hope you'll enjoy it.

Bye