Yes. I'm suicidal 100% of the time, my levels of suicidal thoughts, actions, and ideations just varies day to day. I'm not ashamed. I might not tell everyone I know, but I tell the people that matter to me, because I know that I matter to them. Today was particularly difficult. Recurring urges to harm myself or kill myself were running high, but through strength, and the hope of making my friends and family proud, I didn't act on any urges. I wanted to find a knife or razor and a bathroom so I could gain some relief even if it only lasted a millisecond. I needed a distraction from my own mind. I pray nobody ever visits my mind. It's a terrible, horrifying, painful, tortuous place to be.
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Mentally Disordered Mind
Non-FictionMentally Disordered Mind is a little throw together. containing some of my thoughts, questions, and wishes that I have while fighting my Battle with mental illnesses. YOU ARE NOT ALONE AND YOU DONT HAVE TO FIGHT ALONE. -Gabby D. S.
