Wolfstar OneShots

12 Years

This one hurts. Sorry guys.

It was twelve years that Sirius was alone. Twelve years where his only company were the rats he tore up and ate as if they were Pettigrew, the cold metal of his cell door and the cold cocrete of the walls, and the dementors that tried desperately to suck everything good and pure and happy out of Sirius. As if he hadn't suffered enough.

As if one of his most trusted friends hadn't killed his brother. As if his only family wasn't dead and as if the love of his life didn't think that he killed the only people that he ever truly loved.

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It had been twelve years since Peter betrayed his best friends and transformed into a rat, joining the Weasley family as a pet named Scabbers. Twelve years since he had framed Sirius Black and faked his own death.

Twelve years since he left Remus all alone.

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It had been twelve years since James died. Twelve years since him and Lily perished in what they thought was their own, safe home. Twelve years since that rat framed their best friend and made him lose everything, including the respect and love of Remus Lupin.

Twelve fucking years since their son had been orphaned because Peter was too much of a pussy to fulfil the expectations of a Gryffindor and be brave.

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It had been twelve years since Remus was left on his own. Two of his friends dead and his lover a murderous traitor. Twelve years since he begn to lock himself in his basement with no one to help him survive the 144 full moons he had to endure without his friends, givw or take a few. Twelve years since they dumped Harry onto the Dersley's because Remus was unfit to take care of a child.

Twelve years since he lost his family.

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Sirius had escaped from Azkaban. The first to ever do it.

Peter had been found by Harry on the Marauders very own map, thus leaving Remus to see that and question everything he knew of hat night.

Sirius made his way towards Hogwarts, trying desperately to get closer to Pettigrew after seeing his pictre in the newspaper with Molly Prewitt-who was now a Weasley-and Arthur Weasley and their children.

Remus followed Snape, who followed Harry and Hermione to the Shrieking Shack while they followed Sirius who dragged Ron and-subsequently-Peter into the Shrieking Shack.

Sirius spotted the love of his life for the first time after twelve years, and the look in Remus' eye was not disgust or hate or rage.

Remus was so happy, so relieved that Sirius was innocent, for he knew he was the moment Remus saw him.

Sirius was glad his first gentle human contact in twelve years was from Remus, even though Peter escaped and he was almost relieved of his soul.

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Remus watched Sirius die and Sirius watched Remus hold back his Godson, that scene being the last thing he ever would see. When Sirius fell through the veil, Remus felt a part of his soul being torn out of him as he sobbed and cried.

All he could think of was their first kiss, back in the astronomy tower when Remus almost bit Sirius while he was a werewolf. Sirius made a joke about how he didn't mind being bitten, as it was a kink of his and Remus sighed. Sirius then wrapped a blanket around Remus and they kissed under the stars, which was so fucking fitting.

That was the only thing that Remus could see every time he closed his eyes.

It fucking hurt.

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Owie