Cross My Heart And Hope To Die

Chapter 11 - Our Last Dance

Emily’s POV

Death felt very different than I would have ever guessed. But surely I was in heaven.

"Emily!" Luke's voice was still with me. "Why are you still in bed! You have to get ready." He was shaking my body awake. I popped my eyes open to find him looking at me. Wait. I was in my room. I was alive! But how. The last think I remember was going to Elizabeth's room. Had I made it alive out of that? Kudos to me. 

"I love you Luke." I said as I threw myself at him and hugged him tightly. He hugged me back and I suddenly realized we hadn't said how we felt about each other, but I suddenly didn't care. I held his face and gave him a peck in the lips. I would not lie without knowing what kissing him felt like. 

"Wait!.." He pulled me away softly and held my face in his, "You are so late!" He held me up from bed. "We have to go now!"

Disappointed of how close to the end we were now I walked into my closet and changed into my beautiful gown and in no time we were downstairs dancing our lives away. I looked up at Luke and at that moment I could not believe how far we had come and how close we were from our eminent death. We had broken the rules of the game, we were not needed anymore. This would be the last time I would be in his arms, the last time I ever saw his face. I was suddenly sad. I didn’t want it to end. 

“Emily, What’s wrong?” He placed his hand under my chin and made me look at him. I shook my head. “Nothing.” I wanted this moment to last forever. I placed my arms around his neck and we started dancing to Cut by Plumb  a song that completely described what we had gone through over the last couple of days. The last week to be exact. 

“Please don’t be sad.” He was now imploring. I could feel his blue eyes burning into me. How could I tell him? This was irrational. We would soon be dead. If there was a time for irrational things to happen, this was it. I looked up at him and those eyes were so deep and sincere I could not help myself. 

Looking down to his perfectly tied tie I whispered,“I think I really do love you.” I could not look at him. We could not love each other. We could not fall in love. He could not love me. This was all too much. Too much pain. I wanted to die already to not deal with all this, after all, I was the girl who was born to die. 

Edelan’s Son POV

She just said she loved him. I froze. This can’t be. She should love me, a Dragomir, not some commoner, not Luke. I wanted to hold her and tell her everything was going to be okay. I wanted to tell her that I loved her but the truth is she would never forgive me. She loves someone else. She loves Luke, her helper, not me, not the heir to all this. Heck she doesn’t even know me. I couldn’t believe what I just heard. I had to finally stand up to her and tell her how I felt. I had to tell her I loved her, I had to tell her the truth, no matter the implications that this might bring. 

She will hate me. She will never forgive me for this. She will think I did all this to play with her heart but I swear I didn’t. It was not supposed to happen like this. I was not supposed to fall in love. We were not supposed to fall in love.

She loves Luke. I love her. She will want to kill me when she finds out I’ve been lying. How did I let this go on so far like this. How did this lie get so crazy and involved. I should have listened to father when he warned me. He warned me to stay away. He told me I was getting too attached and now here I am, heartbroken because it is not me she loves. 

How will she forgive me when she finds out the man she loves had been lying to her all this time. How will she forgive me when she finds out that, not only Luke but also her best friend here hid this from her for so long. How will she forgive me when I confess my love for her and who I really am. How will she forgive me when she finds out that I, Edelyn’s son, Edelyn’s heir, Lucius Dragomir, am also her beloved Luke. 

She will hate me for sure. I hate myself right now. “Emily, I need to tell you something.” I replied finally. Those chocolate brown eyes looked up at me so naive, so innocent, so beautiful, her cheeks still pink from her recent confession. How could I have done this? How could I have lied so boldly to her? To my Emily...

I had to tell her. Those brown eyes were asking for sincerity. I had to tell her. This song was not helping at all. It is such a sad song. Lucius you can do this. Just take a deep breath and break this beautiful girl’s heart once and for all. This is inevitable. It was inevitable since the day you met her. Since the day you told her your name. ‘You can call me Luke.’ The first time I ever flirted with her. Those beautiful simple times. Now, it was time to tell her the truth. To break her heart. Well here goes nothing. 

“I..” and then I was cut off. Oh. No. No. No. Please no. I need more time. Please, Please I need more time.