Cross My Heart And Hope To Die

Chapter 14 - I Can't Seem To Find... Molly

First night in college I'm going to have to describe it with just one word: Crazy as fuck!

Yes well that might be three words but they are well deserved and well I am still a little under the influence of who knows what from last night. Yes I have become a bit of a potty mouth but.. can you blame me? I am not proud of what I did but it happened and well now I have to move on.

~.Twelve Hours Earlier.~

"So you are staying with me. I will not take a no for an answer! You have to experience college at least once in your lifetime." My best friend in the world exclaimed whom I never bothered to mention before because until one week ago I thought my future was marked in stone. Now I was not so sure anymore. To tell you the truth I was not sure about anything anymore.

I called her when I left Lucius and here I am two days later in her dorm room. It has been two whole days without seeing his face, his eyes. I was miserable. How can people do this? How can people survive after such heartbreak?

"Ellie, I don't know about this." I said putting on the very tight and tiny black dress. I looked hot but not classy. Oh those dresses in the Dragomir mansion. Well I was going to have to move on eventually.

"Oh Emily just shut up and take the shot." Oh yes. We were going all the way tonight. No... Not in the way you think... Dirty minds all of you. We were going to get waisted. I was going to learn the normal way of getting over a guy. The yellowish liquid smelled so bad I didn't even want to taste it. A girl had got to do what a girl has got to do right? 1, 2....3. I took the shot. Geez it was burning my mouth. Wow that tasted really bad. "Ew! I can't believe you drink this stuff." I don't think I could take another one. Ewwww!

"Oh well that is because you are doing it wrong. For tequila shots," she said pointing at the bottle she was now purring another shot from, "You have to lick salt from you hand," she said while giving me some salt and I put it on the top of my thumb where she directed me, "Take the shot and then bite the lime." She placed a piece of lime on the table. I nodded.

"Okay then. Here goes to assholes!" I licked my hand, took the shot and then bit the lime. Ew! Gezz that was not better. I mean the taste didn't bother me as much but the burning sensation was still there. I could already feel the liquid courage running in my veins. I was already a little light headed.

"Okay Emily. Now we are going to take one last shot. This one is for Luke okay?"

"Yeeeeessssssss. This one is for Luciuussssss and to letting go!" I yelled as I poured the liquid into my mouth again. To tell you the truth, it still tasted pretty bad but with every shot you could taste it a little less. That last one didn't bather me as much.

"Okay now its time to party!" Ellie said as she turned on the radio of her room and so we could finish up getting dressed and everything. I was already ready and started signing along to the song that started to play. "I just went through a break up, Oh Yeah Yeah Yeah. I post some pictures up looking sexy. Now this guy wanna texts me." which he hadn't. I wanted to call him. No you can't! "He gone regret the day he left Oh Yeah Yeah Yeah." This explained my situation so well omg. I stood up and started dancing along to the song.

"Ems we have to go." Ellie came into my dancing bobble and yanked me out of the room.

We walked for about ten minutes to get to the house party. And OMG when we walked inside everyone was acting so damn crazy. Everyone was going completely wack.

"Wow" Ellie and I both said at the same time. There where red cups everywhere and hand in the air like they didn't care. Wait that is the lyrics to a song. Oh shit. I'm talking in lyrics now. I must be really drunk. I giggled. We walked inside and got ourselves beers. I chugged mine not realizing why you are not supposed to mix beer and other alcohols.

After two more beers, three more shots of who knows what, a couple of weird tasting brownies and one little pill they called Molly, I was gone. I'm surprised I made it out alive. I was dancing on tables swaying my body to "A little Party Never Killed Nobody." I will have to say that song explains everything in my life right now.

Somehow my phone ended up in my hand and I was calling someone. "Hello," The other side of the line said a little confused and concerned. "Make up your mind ssssssweet baby. Either you are mine or you areeee not." I sang.

"Emily? Are you drunk?" he asked in disbelief.

"A little party never killed nobody." I kept singing the song not paying attention to my phone.

"Emily where are you? Are you okay? What have you consumed?" He asked angry now. Like he cared. Psst. I stared giggling again. Why couldn't I stop? I had to act serious here.

"Bartender go ahead and pour me a little more. Tonight we are going to have us a good time. Celebrating the goooooodbyessss." I sang the words to a song I was listening earlier. Wait he was waiting for me to respond right? I cleared my mind a little and responded. "Noooothing. Like yoou care." I slurred my words.

The song changed and now I found myself dancing to "Molly" by Tyga.

"Emily, Where the fuck are you?" he was getting impatient.

"OhOh. I'm in troubleeee." I teased him.

"Fuck, Emily. What are you on?" He asked again exasperated.

"Molly Molly Molly Molly." I chanted and then hung up. "I can't seem to find Molly. Put it in my drink. Pu-Put it in my drink." I was swaying my hips like there was no tomorrow.