Saint Nick

Heart to Heart

Big thanks to my boo, Mackenzie, for teaching me how to put a GIF on here!

A/N//:

On the third day of Christmas
My author gave to me
Three tiny smiles,
Two pounding hearts, and
One cheater with too many regrets

Chapter Three-Heart to Heart
It was like everything happened in slow-motion, just like in those corny romcoms when the main characters finally kiss in the last five minutes of a Hallmark movie. His hands steadied me at my waist-firm, but not gripping as his mouth descended upon mine. His soft lips tasted of whipped cream, egg nog, and chocolate; his scent of Christmas pine. I immediately felt heat flood my body and I wrapped my arms around his sturdy frame, lightly gripping his shoulder blades for balance as I stood on my toes to reach him.

The kiss was gentle-sensual. It was clean and crisp and full of emotion. It was like he had waited his whole life for this one moment in time. We moved together in a slow and steady pace, pressing against each other. The heat spread to one particular part of my body, making me slightly squirm with anticipation. When he pulled away, I almost groaned at the loss of comfortable warmth he had brought to me.

"Wow, Win, That was-amazing," he beamed, gazing down at me and flashing a bright smile. Looking at him in this way, I could recognize Pickles now that he told me.

"I'm feeling a bit of deja voo, Pickles." He chucked and released me, but interlocking our fingers as we still stood underneath the mistletoe. "I don't remember putting that there," I said, gesturing to the ceiling where the branch was hanging.

He blushed and looked at our hands, scratching the back of his neck. "Yeah, when I disappeared, I went out and got some really quick. Told ya, I was sneaky." I nodded, and pulled him closer to me and enveloping myself back into his warmth. I wrapped my arms under his and rested my hands on his shoulder blades. "Is it bad if I say I've wished for this since I was a kid?" I shook my head, his arms wrapping around my body. "You were my first kiss, you know?"

I looked up at him. "Really? That was your first time? Fourth grade?" He nodded. "What about...the other thing?"

"I'm not a virgin. It was a drunken, spiked egg nog mistake I made when I was seventeen and rebellious."

"It's okay!"

"I know." His face fell and he frowned. "I do wish that I was your first everything, but I was told not to interfere with you and Benjamin's relationship. I knew he was a douche on the first date."

"You were there?!"

"Glaring at him the whole time." He beamed proudly. We laughed together, his cute nose scrunching up a little bit as he beamed.

"Nick..."

"Yeah?" he wiped a small tear from his eye.

"You said you wished you were my first everything, but I haven't really done..."

He frowned, his chocolate brown eyes putting the pieces together. "You mean you're a..." I nodded and he smiled once again, leaving me breathless. "Oh my, God!" he picked me up and twirled me around, hugging me close. "You waited this long?"

He set me back on the hardwood floor and I looked at my feet. "I was going to...tonight, but things happened and, yeah," I paused. "When we had been together for a while, Ben wanted to, and he would pressure me a lot. I didn't even question it when he suddenly stopped asking. Now I know why." I felt tears well up in my eyes and I struggled to keep them at bay.

"Hey," he said, lifting my chin up with his forefinger, causing the tears to fall. "It's alright to be upset, Win, and it's okay to cry. You were with him for a long time." I nodded and let them fall, my vision of him blurring in seconds due to my tears. Nick swept my legs into his left arm, supporting my back with his right as he carried me over to the couch and sat down. "You wanted to make your first time special; I get that and I think it's wonderful. Giving the ultimate gift to someone on Christmas is not something that anyone should take lightly at all, and I admire that you have waited as long as you have."

My heart swelled at his words, an all too familiar feeling rising up. How could I feel this way now? I barely know him...as an adult anyway. It was so foreign to have someone understand and appreciate me; appreciate that I wanted to wait even! He said he admired me for it! I held him closer and took in more of his pine scent, debating on what I wanted at this very moment. My whole life was a fantasy-a fantasy that was now reality-so what would I do in this world?

My world.

I had played it safe all my life, waiting for the perfect moment, and I think I had finally found it now. Granted, it wasn't with the person that I thought it would be with, but it was with someone that was a billion times better! And if I wake up finding that this was all just a crazy dream, it'd be the best wet dream I've ever had!

"I do want it to be special," I whispered, wiping my tears and looking up at him. "And Christmas is the most special time of the whole year."

"It is," he agreed, slightly frowning at the change in atmosphere.

"You want to be my first everything, right?"

His eyes became dark with lust as he realized why there was tension in the air. "I do."

"I want that too," I whispered, kissing up his neck. "Here and now."