Chances Of Truth ☑️

60

(Eva pov)

One week passed in a blink of an eye.

I work in diner from 8 am to 10 pm, I know its not healthy but who cares, I need something to divert my mind. Something I love to do. And cooking is what I needed for it. I begged Mrs. Tim and other staff to not inform about me working in diner. And they all agreed

It's been more than two weeks since I last visited Angel and Mia.

I am a mess, I can't sleep, I can't talk, I can't even smile. With the help of my medicines I am able to sleep for 2 hours max but after that I simply turn and twist in bed. I can't sleep because nightmares are getting worse day by day.

I don't know what's going on, I want to be normal me but it feels like that normal me died that day and I am finding it hard to bring back something which I used to be.

Chloe and his finance Page were so persistent to make me laugh but it lead into them crying with me. They started their night shift and I can't be more thankful for that because those two keeps checking on me in every hour. It kinds of creeps me out but I am fine with it now. Because they both don't mean any harm.

Today I decided to visit hospital but I don't know what I would say or do because I need time. So I shook my head and decided that it would be best if I just go to diner.

.......

Another week passed and still I have to go to check on Angel and Mia.

I took my bag in my hands and started walking towards hospital, its just fifteen minutes walk from here. I wanted to walk so I can clear my head.

Still I don't have phone, I am saving for it but I don't know what's stopping me from getting one.

I entered inside and everyone smiled but I simply walked and open their door and sat on chair next to Angel's bed.

I don't know what to do or what to say. I simply stare at her.

"Hey Angel, I know I know you are mad at me for not visiting, but." I took a breath. "I needed time to put some pieces together which were still hanging. But there is nothing to put together Angel, everything is gone, they finally broke me Angel. I gave each and every broken piece of my heart to all of them and each and every one crushed it into so many pieces I can't even recognise myself in mirror. " I shook my head. "You know, finally I get to know that my mother and father are alive but how can I trust them, because in my whole life I loved only one person and that person took my soul away from me. So how can I trust again. How can I let them play with me again? So I ran away. I am scared angel I am scared that I won't be able to survive this. It's too much, I can't bare all this pain I can't move forward Angel, something is stopping me. I am trying to pull myself together because this is not the first time someone broke my heart and trust but why it feels like I would never be able to be same." I clutched her bed sheet tight. "I need you Angel, because in this whole world you are the one who loved me no matter what. You loved me when whole school and my parents were against me, you loved me when I was nothing. And I know deep down that you would understand me and not go against my back. I want to kill my self, and it doesn't even scare me Angel, but I would not do that to you because I know as much as I want you right now in my life you need me too." I took deep breath. "I want to forget and forgive them but angel, I saw my baby crying and calling for me in my every dreams, I am scared of sleeping Angel, she calls for me to save her but I simply can't do anything and every time it gets worse. So I stopped sleeping its killing me day by day I would do anything to not here her crying."
I broke down clenching my stomach tight. I was crying so hard I didn't realised that someone was inside.

Page put her hand on my shoulder and started crying with me I let her hold me because I needed someone to hold me and whisper that everything is going to be fine. But who I am joking with. It's never going to be okay.

I pulled away and wiped my face. I kissed Angel on her head and walked to Mia. I kissed her head and run out hospital not wanting to see pity in Page eyes.