My fight against Breast Cancer

6

I went inside the building and report to the receptionist. She told me to sit down for a bit. I took a seat and there was this woman next to me. 

"Hi. I'm Grace." 

"Payton." 

"That's a pretty name."

"So is Grace. And thank you."

"This doctor is very popular. But it's because he is good."

"I saw the reviews."

"Why are you here?"

"Not sure yet. My breasts are just being weird."

"Oh. Lets hope for the best."

"What about you?"

"I have breast cancer. Here for my treatment."

"Oh gosh. I'm so sorry."

The doctor comes out and he takes a file.

"Payton Green." He calls out.

"That's me."

"Good luck."

"Thanks you too."

"Grace. You can go through to the back for me." the doctor says. She nods and gets up. I get up too. Grace goes to the back and the doctor shows me to go into his office.

I went into his office and I sit down. He comes in and sits down at his desk too.

"I'm Dr. Price. What seems to be the problem?"

"My breasts are quite sensitive lately and this morning there came out like these white liquid stuff."

"Are you on birth control?"

"Yes." 

"Take a seat over there and then we can do a check on it." he says and I get up. I make my way to the chair and sit down. He comes to me and gets his stuff ready.

"Can you remove your shirt for me?" 

"Um.... Yeah I guess." I said hesitating. 

"I have to actually see your breasts to know what is going on." he says. I nod and I take my shirt off.

"Just relax for me. And take your bra off for me too." I nod and do as he says. He comes to me and he starts touching my breasts. He was gentle but I start flinching. 

"Does it hurt when I touch it?"

"Yes. Very much."

"And now I see the liquid. I'm going to have to do a breast scan to see what is going on in the inside."

I nod and he sets up the scanner.

"You can come here Payton." I get up and I was a bit uncomfortable walking around his office with just my bare breasts. I try to cover it up a bit.

"Payton. I get you feel uncomfortable but I work with this everyday. I see you work at Seattle Grace. If it will make you feel more comfortable going there for this then I can schedule an appointment for you."

"No. I came here because I don't want to go to Seattle Grace."

"The one doctor there is good too. I think his name is Logan."

"I know him very well and I really don't want to go to him."

"Then I need you to feel a bit more comfortable around me. I need you to trust me."

"I'll try my best. Please I need to know what is happening to me. If it is something serious I need to know about it." I said and I let my arms down.

"Then lets see what is going on." he says.

I stand in front of the scanner and he stands behind me. He puts the scanner on both my breasts and he starts scanning them. He stands next to the scanner and checks on the screen.

"How old are you Payton?"

"I'm 30."

"Wow. You're pretty young. Do you have any kids?"

"No. I'm not married. I'm single. What about you?"

"I'm engaged I'm getting married in 6 months. Do you exercise?"

"With my long hours at the hospital. I don't really have the time."

"Do you eat healthy at least?"

"Um... I don't. I usually just grab pizza or whatever on my way home."

"Lets go sit and talk for a bit." he says. He switched the scanner off and take them off from my breasts. He walks to his desk and sits down. I followed him, put my bra and shirt back on, and sit down too. He takes out some leaflets  and hold it in his hands. I didn't see what it was about.

"I want you to leave the birth control pills now. Completely. Don't drink them at all. I want you to try and exercise. Take the stairs instead of the elevator at work. When you get a break go walk around the hospital. No more fast foods or any junk foods. Eat fruits and salads and vegetables. No drinking if you are drinking. Even occasionally. No more alcohol."

"Why are you telling me this? Is it that bad?"

"You have to tell your boss. I need him to send me through your insurance plan so that I can start with the treatment immediately. If I don't start as soon as possible. It will be harder for me to help you through this. And I need your schedule to see which days I can book you for your treatments. The sooner I start the better it is for you."

"What are you saying?"

"This next part is never easy for me to tell a patient."

"Oh no." I said and I look down to the floor. I felt the tears forming in my eyes.

"You have stage 2 breast cancer." 

I sat there shaking my head. I start to cry. He holds out the leaflets to me for me to take them. Tears rolls down my cheeks and I just shook my head again at the news he gave me. I stare at him and I get up and just walked out of his office. He follows me to try and stop me. But I ignored him and just kept on walking. I needed some time to process this. I went to a park near there just to sit and think for a while.

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