Make Me or Break Me ✖️Muke

Chapter 20

"hey Lu" Ricky knocks on his door before walking into the room. she finds Luke laying on his bed, headphones in and swiping through something on his phone. she walks over to the side of his bed before he notices shes there. he just takes out one headphone and moves over to make room for her. she sits down and puts the headphone in.

"you're listening to 5MTM? I thought you didn't like their music?" she asks him, he shrugs and continues to swipe the screen. she leans over to see what hes doing ans sighs. He seems to be going through old photos of him and Michael.

"why are you doing this to yourself?" she asks. she knows Luke is already worried for his friend from the tabloid article a month ago about Michael being Anorexic.

"he was my best friend.. i just." he sighs.

"i don't know how i didn't notice when he became more than a friend to me." he finally looks up at her and she doesn't look surprised at all.

"Luke, 14 is a hard age to be questioning yourself. you guys were so focused on wanted to peruse music, its no wonder you never realized it until he was gone."

"i don't understand how the 14 year old i knew became the 20 year old now."

"a lot can happen in 6 years Luke."

"ya so i keep hearing." he mutters.

"hey, forget about what could be going on behind closed doors, just focus on the fact that you have a second chance with your best friend. And maybe its a sign, seeing each other after all this time. we all know that what you told us isn't the whole truth, so maybe its the universe giving you a second chance to make it right."

"make what right?"

"i don't know, but we all know that something is going on with him. he is most definitely suffering from an eating disorder. i think we've only ever seen him eat once since we've been on tour. Just the way he acts. you said he was so different from what you remember, someone can change a lot in six years but their whole personality cant take a full 180 unless something really bad happened."

"he didn't come to school for a month, didn't talk to me for two weeks. when he came back to school he was wearing all black and had eyeliner and he always had his earphones in. then he dyed his hair black and just stopped coming to school completely. it was the last day of school that we had our fight, in the school hallway after band practice. he had been on edge and i knew something was up with him. all of a sudden the ideas for songs he was coming up with were so sad and morbid. i was confused and upset that something was wrong and he wouldn't tell me. i was his best friend, he should have been able to tell me." the tears start to fall without Luke knowing or caring.

"you should have heard the song he played for me. i don't know if it was the song per say, because it was amazing when i think back on it, but-" he cuts himself off and his eyes widen when the chords to a new song start to play in his ear.

"Luke?" Ricky asks, looking at him in concern.

"shh" he shushes her, clicking out of the old photos and going to his spotify that is playing all of Michael's songs on shuffle. His hand freezes when the words start and he reads the title of the song.

"Ricky.." he gets out through in incoming sob as they listen to the lyrics.

"Take a seat and just listen up

'Cause this rhyme and reason done too much
I'm a dime a dozen thrown to sea,
You'll have to wait and see

You can have all of your outbreaks
If you let me make my own mistakes
I lie awake in my own head