Hidden Secrets

15| I did it again

Chapter 15| I did it again

^^2002 by Anne Marie^^

Q U I N N

Once he had brought me to my room, he got some bandages and whatever and started checking my hands. His eyes showed constant worry, and to be honest I couldn't decide whether I like it or not. It either made me feel weak or...loved.

" What were you thinking?" He says, his eyes meeting mine.

Remember. They're not brown. You have nothing to hide.

" I met...one of my..exes and he...brought some memories back," I say, trying to give as much detail as I possibly can.
" Ugh exes, people should really believe in forever," He murmurs.
" Once I really did," I smile. " Once upon a time I was a happy little girl with a happy family, and then I met this guy. And stuff was great for a couple of years, but then there was an 'incident' and it ended up with me and Valentina on the streets, and by the way, my parents are still alive, and one day I'll tell you everything but for now, all you need to know is that we didn't end on good terms,"

" I know so much about you and you know nothing about me," He sighs, looking down.

If only you knew.

" When I was younger, no one could tell Jason and I apart, our personalities were exactly the same that it was actually scary. And then I found out that my parents had a gang, and since I was the oldest, I'd be taking over next. Of course I didn't know what that meant for me. In every story the guy who's gonna be the gang leader is abused and that makes him cold and closed off. But for me, my parents loved me so much. They taught me everything I know with support and whatever, which made me think whatever I was doing was never wrong. Of course it is, but...as a child I thought I was gonna be some sort of super spy. Anyway, eventually when I was 18, so around 5 years ago, I was out with Zach, and these guys crept into our house and killed my parents. My own parents, the same ones who made me pancakes and taught me how to fight. Jason was hiding in a fucking closet. And I wasn't there to help them, and most importantly, my parents left me to do this alone. Eventually I decided maybe if the world hated me too, no one would want to talk to me, and everything would hurt less," He says, practically shaking. " But then again, everyone hates a gang leader, no matter how hard you try,"

" At least we both have been through some shit," I smile.
" Yeah...but that doesn't mean we've ever deserved it,"
" No, no one ever does, but at least it shows that we're strong, and we're not just anyone, we're brave and different and sometimes that's what's most important. You may have the most things and the best stuff, but you might not be good on the inside. When you've been through stuff like this, you either own it, and let it fuel whatever new emotions you feel and make you stronger, or let it overwhelm you into the darkness. And guess what Jonah? We both made the right decision," I say, tears beginning to fall again.

He looks up to me and I can almost see a hint of a smile appear on his face.

Almost.

" You always know what to say," He says, tucking my hair behind my ear.
I just smile back.

And he leans in.

It was nothing like Shane's kiss. His was heartbreaking and broken. Jonah's was gentle and even though I really wanted to lift my hands and run it through his hair, my hands were aching to much.

There's one bad decision.

And I felt him smile against my lips.

" Y...you," I suddenly say, pushing back to get a good look at him. " Come on let's see those teeth," I grin.

He had the most adorable dimples and to be honest, he really did look like Jason, but Jason's eyes aren't as blue as Jonah's. And Jonah's eyes are amazing. His eyes were suddenly alive, as if they were bursting with energy.

And his smile might be my new favourite thing too.

Well I did it again. I'm on the way to breaking another person's heart, and I never want to, but it always happens.

" Hey Kitten don't think, just do," He smiles again, leaning back in.

I nearly jump from the slow claps that come from the door.

" That was beautiful," Jason says, fake wiping a tear as Zach laughs.
" How long have you been standing there for?" I ask. 
" Since your rant about how people make good or bad decisions," Zach shrugs.
" We should throw a party," Jason says.
" Does anyone wanna crash a wedding?" I grin.

Jason and Zach turn to me, smiling as if it was Christmas. " Who's is it?" They say in unison.

" My brother's," I smirk.
" Well if you want to then I'm all for it," Jason smirks.
" Well then, first you guys need to get some new tuxes, or whatever, at least Jason does, Jason doesn't seem like the person to own a tux, Scarlet's coming too, and we'll go get some dresses, we're gonna go in style," I say.

Scarlet and I head dress shopping once again, to get dressed for the both of us this time. I want to show my parents how well I'm doing without them. How I've found my real family.

Call me petty or whatever, because I really don't care.

Eventually, we settle on a short black dress for Scarlet, trimmed with pieces of lace that made her look stunning, whilst I decided on a navy blue dress with a slit up my leg and a low neckline.

Jonah
Meet us outside the house and ready

Let's do this. And we're gonna be looking so good no one will dare to challenge us.

Yay.

Sure I'll have bandages all over my hands but meh.

It'll make me look badass.

Fun Fact: Right so Jonah was supposed to believe that he was the reason they died but I was like wayyyy to cliche.