2 moons - AU

My World - ForthBeam

I do not know what to say ... But there you go ...I know I was late but I was so stressed that I could only write again now ... Sorry?

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"Beam, I do not know if I can ..."

"Alright, Forth ... Do you trust me?"

"You know I do!"

"So trust me! I, the person who loves you the most and who never wants to see you sad or hurt will be on your side. If you feel that you have reached your limit, just let me know! I'll stop right away! "

"Do not you like it the way we do?"

"Of course not, Forth! The way we always do is magnificent. I love you and joining you is always the best experience of my life. Just want another experience, try something new to add to the routine. Nothing will go missing or stop, just add up! "

Forth takes a deep breath and just nods and tries to find as always a trusting connection in Beam's eyes, and like always, he finds what he's looking for. Forth trusts Beam, only he who does not trust himself. BDSM has always been a taboo to Forth, and as much as he cared about the subject felt his fears about pain, subjection, and addiction. He, in researching porn with this practice, saw a passive and an active, the active always dominating the passive and this one often tied, kneeling, blindfolded or in any other situation of submission and humiliation. Forth does not like it, he likes to look eye to eye, to feel the person giving everything in the bed and feel that the two have powers to pleasure the other equally. Forth does not like power struggle, he likes to give and take the best of his partner, which now, and what if possible forever, is Beam. Forth loves to give Beam pleasure, but if he should do what he saw in the videos his confidence drops. He can not imagine hurting, torturing or making psychological games with Beam.

"But Beam ... Is that what you want? You're not afraid? I can hurt you or vice versa. I'm afraid of what my head will tell my body to do. I saw some porn, and I can not imagine both of us that way... "

"Forth! First of all, forget these videos you've seen. Porn will never show the reality of sex and you know it. Second, that BDSM is done on the basis of trust. I trust you and you trust me. We will only discover new pleasures of our body, and this all is up to us. Let me lead today and let's find out how far we can go...okay? "

Beam kisses Forth and tries to make eye contact. Beam finds it important that Forth feels safe with what they will do. Forth who was sitting on the bed in his bedroom is pushed down by his shoulder briefly by Beam's hand until his back touches the bed.

"Forth, it's ok to us do it?"

"Alright...Just promise me that at the end of it all you'll sleep in my arms and say you love me."

*Laughs* "If you want to, I'll tell you now, during and after that I love you! Because regardless of everything, I love you, and at the end of it all I'll be in your arms, as I always will be!"

Forth smiles at Beam and pulls he to him, laying him down on his body. Forth kisses Beam deeply, interlacing his fingers in his hair as a hand grabs firmly at his waist. Forth is not ready, but he's ready to give the reins to Beam and that's what he does. Forth loosens Beam and just nods at him to continue with what he wants to do. Beam smiles and caresses Forth's face and thanks mentally for finding such an incredible person. Not because he had accepted it, because anyone brave enough would accept only for pleasure, but for Forth to have shown and given full confidence to Beam. Never ever just in sex, but in life where he always showed total trust in him.

"The key word will be 'RED'. Say that word and I will understand that I have to stop and I will."

"And why not 'STOP'?"