To end the pain (Mikey Depressed) (A Ninja Turtle Fic)

Another Morning

Mikey's P.O.V.
I was the first one awake today and I looked like absolute crap. The dream I had haunted me. I sigh to myself softly as dark thoughts infiltrate my mind. A tired hand run downs my head. My glazed eyes travel down to my arms...the scars...I know I said I won't harm myself again but...it's so tempting. A shaky sigh leaves my lips. My heart felt like it was shattered yet staying held up with fading tape. I mope up into the mirror looking at my fat body figure. I gaze into the my reflection noticing how fat and flawed I am, tears fill my eyes out of frustration. I hurry down to the kitchen and decide to make breakfast for my bro's but not myself, I can skip. My mind is filled with terrible cold words and I try to shrug them off, losing the war in my head, I walk into the dojo in a panic. I needed the extra training anyways. Sensei looked mildly suprised but I don't really know why...what's wrong with extra training? I now felt numb to emotions but everything felt sad or gloomy. My hands find their way to my nunchucks, feeling foreign to me. The spark in my eyes were now gone and my freckles were lighter...I just wanted to end it all, it's so hard to live. Why can't my bro's see that...Everyone keeps saying "It's gonna get better"...I never heard a bigger lie.

2 DAYS LATER

"I'm fine" has bcame my norm, I haven't eaten since...2 days, that's fine though. My legs beg for action and movement though I'm so tired...

Fat.

Stupid.

Worthless.

Freak.

Annoying.

A silent scream escapes from my throat. I wanted to yell, cry, anything but I couldn't...that would show weakness. Depression..Funny how one word could bring so much pain...bring so much meaning. I'm tired...I'm ever so tired. A black abyss claims me where I am taken to a nightmare I never wanted to see.

Chapter 4 is coming up...I just wanted to write about Mikey's struggle