To end the pain (Mikey Depressed) (A Ninja Turtle Fic)

...Hurt

Leo's P.O.V.
I jump up into Mikey's room but it was just a vast open space. A hint of confusion flashes my eyes but I shrug it off. Mikey has been acting...strange...off... I don't know, maybe he just needs time to recover.

Mikey's P.O.V.
I rush through the sewer pipe silently hissing as my self made wound reopens. My head bows down in hopelessness and surrender. I can't shake the thought of just wanting to give up but what would everyone think...

Sensei: "A failure, pathetic, and unhonorable waste of time"

Donnie: "Finally that useless moron is gone"

Raph: "Glad for some actual peace without that annoying thing"

Leo: "The team is much better now without 'him'"

Thoughts cloud my mind again but I don't have the will power to get rid of them. They were all true and it was exhausting. My stomach grumbles loudly and I smack myself. No. I can't eat. I curl myself into a ball...it was so cold, ever so cold. Glassy eyes meet mine and I realize it's a cat..."Hey" I whisper softly. The white fluff ball tilts it's head and nuzzles closer into me. A sigh leaves me and I place the cat in front of the lair. I murmur to it to go to the 2nd floor to my room stealthily and she seems to understand. She instantly does just that and I nod in approval. My feet teavel further away from the lair again...I didn't want to leave the cat alone in the sewer. A wave of diziness hits me and I fall to my knees, my arms push my body up but it feels it weighs 11 tons. April and Casey cross my mind for a split second but the though of visiting them vanishes. what will they think? I want to be enough but I never will be. I settle down in the middle of the sewer hoping to fall into a peaceful darkness but sleep doesn't come easily...in fact..I wait a few hours before I get up and move. I barely acknowledge my ankle now...what's the point...what's the point of everything?. I give up solemnly. I just wanted to be at peace...I just didn't wanna be alone but at the same time I do. A broken sob escapes my lips before I can stop it. Hiccups and whimpers come out of me. I just want to sleep forever. I wanted someone I hear something in the distance but it's just a blur of colours. My tired head hits the wall leading me into the peaceful darkness I retreat into.

Yeeeah-enough depressing Mikey filler chapters ooor?

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