To end the pain (Mikey Depressed) (A Ninja Turtle Fic)

Where am I?

Mikey's P.O.V.

"Where do you think you're going" Crap. I thank my legs for not failing me and to continue running. I've always been the fastest of my brothers but recently, I haven't been myself and I've been falling behind. Oh well. My freckled cheeks feel wet and I'm not sure if it's rain or tears but I'm so tired. Tired of being a burden, tired of being made fun of, tired of everything. Just let me go in peace brothers. Let me go. I can't bare making you guys worry not that any of you will but still. I'm drowned in guilt and once I finally find a place to hide and relax, a small abandoned underground safety box thing, I break down sobbing. I'm hurt and scared and alone and I want someone or something. Letting myself curl up into a small ball, I finally let myself rest.

Leo's P.O.V.

What is that idiot of my brother doing? How could he run away injured? why? There are so many questions I want to ask him but I can't and that's what makes me worry. I don't know if I can trust him anymore. "Leatherhead, get the others to look for Mikey! I'll continue searching, we'll cover more ground that way" I'm terrified of what Mikey will do, I should've known something was extremely wrong, why didn't I talk to him more? Now's not the time to be pitying myself, I need to help Mikey. I run trying to follow his tracks but also keeping my guard up. I wonder...This track is dangerously close to Shreddar's place. I take the longer way as me getting injured would slow me down or even worse killed, that wouldn't help anybody. I just want to find Mikey. I don't care how far he is or how far gone he thinks he is, I need him.

Mikey's P.O.V. 《Dream Time~》

There's laughter but where from?
"Pathetic"
"Do you really think running away could get rid of us"
"I'm dissapointed in you Mikey, I expected better"
"Running away won't make us care anymore, what, did you want us to come running after you? boo hoo, Miket the weakest turtles thinks he's worth something"
"STOP" I scream "Just stop" I feel so defeated, how long will this internal battle last. I'm so exhausted mentally and physically
"Why should we? You mean nothing. You are nothing. You are trash"

I gasp sitting up, "Shell, that was horrible" I mutter to myself. Will I ever feel better? I can't keep going on like this and suddenly..suddenly being gone seems like the only option for me to be at peace. 'Not even you deserve that sweet release of death, not that a coward like you would try, and what of you honor? what will be of that. You will put the family to shame' I miss my brothers but why would they ever want me back. I sit near the wall in silence. I let myself breathe out though I'd hardly call it a breath. It's so shaky and that's when I realize I'm shaking. I'm shaking so much. "T-This wouldn't be the worse place to die I guess" I scoot myself to the corner of the room and start drawing on the dusty walls with my fingers. It's me...and Donnie..and Leo...and Raph. I decide to add Master Splinter too. "I'm sorry dad" I whisper

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