I Fell Into Your Arms

Chapter 22: Misery (Dracos side)

Warning: this chapter has self harm & suicide mentions. If this triggers anyone skip over it.

After Hermione left, Draco roared dangerously. "Im an idot! How could I be so thick?!" He groaned smacking his forehead.

He thought he could finally manage to catch the witch of his dreams, but alas, that was not meant to be. He went to the fireplace. "Malfoy Manor, Dracos room!" He stepped through into his room and collapsed onto his bed.

Draco was beyond depressed, he fell in love with Hermione after she punched him in their third year. She was always fighting to do what was right no matter the consequences. It was her passion and love of knowledge that got Draco aroused just looking at the brunette.

It wasnt until their 6th year that he began to hopelessly fall for Hermione. She was the one who found him in the bathroom crying his eyes out. Draco was about to end his suffering, he didnt have the guts to strike the most powerful wizard in the world. He had out his knife and was about to do the fatal cut, when the door opened, and in walked Hermione.

Flashback..

Hermione was only walking down a hallway when she heard sobbing. Curious, she stopped and let herself into the nearest room. She didnt know it was the boys loo, and continued on in.

At the sink she saw a blonde boy with his back to her. A knife was  in his hands and shaking violently.

"I cant, I cant do this anymore! I cant hurt anyone else to save my own skin!" The boy gasped then continued to sob.

"If you are feeling so guilty, then dont. The answer is simple." Hermione said at last.

The boy raised his head, and to his horror, it had to be Miss Know-It-All. Draco didnt have the energy to scowl or throw an insult. He was exhausted of feeling so scared and paranoid all the time. Draco knew it was all over, Hermione would tell Saint Potter. Then Draco would surely be expelled, after it was revealed he was behind all the attacks. "Granger, it isnt that simple."

"Why shouldnt it be?" Hermione asked.

Draco sighed, "I will tell you, and then I will rid myself of all this pain. You understand me?"

Hermione nodded.

Draco launched into the story. Voldemorts order for him to kill Dumbledore, and all his failed attempts that nearly got 3 people killed. He told Hermione of his anxieties of not succeeding, it would mean instant death for him and his family. "Why delay the inevitable?"

Hermione gasped as Draco was about to stab the knife into his chest. Quickly Hermione raised her wand, causing the knife to fly to her.  "Listen to me, I understand the position you are in. I know you cant take an innocent life, but you will be taking an innocent one if you go through with suicide right now! Despite all you've done to me, I care about you. Always have, probably always will. You know that I cant let you kill yourself. Hell, I would drag you to Snapes office and lock you in with him if he could talk some sense into you!"

Draco sighed, "he wont talk to me. I blew him off during Christmas break."

Hermione took his hand, and lead him from the batbroom. "He will always listen to me. Contrary to popular belief, he and I have struck up a secret friendship."

"Since when?" Draco asked.

"My fourth year, when you enlarged my teeth, you ferret." Hermione growled

"Never goi g to let me live that one down, will you?" Draco groaned.

"Nope!" Hermione giggled.

When they got to Snapes office, Hermione knocked three times in quick sucession.

The door opened to, "Granger, your early for our daily tea. Is something wrong?" Snapes voice turned to concern when he saw Draco next to her, avoiding his eye.

"I need a potion Severus." Hermione breathed.

"What kind of potion? Surely you could brew it yourself? You are more than capable." Snapes eyebrow went up.

"Not this one. Only licenced potion masters can make it." Hermione answered at once.

Snape frowned, "come in, both of you."
Once they were seated at his small table did Snape ask, "What potion is it Granger?"

"Suicide prevention." Hermione answered.

Snape shot her a sharp expression, "I had no idea you were depressed Hermione I.."

"Not for me, for Draco." Hermione nudged the blonde.

Snape released a small gasp of surprise as his eyes slowly widened. "Where did you find him Hermione?" He asked in a low gentle tone.

"He was about to end his life Severus. He ended up telling me everything, dont worry." Hermione added before the dark man could inturrupt. "I will use the Occulamency you taught me to keep all of it hidden. Merlin, if word got out I know it would be disasterous."

"Indeed Hermione. My apologie, but do you mind if we skip todays tea?" Snape glanced at Draco worriedly.

"Not at all. Send me word about tomorrow with one of the elves. Now Draco, Im sorry, but remember I will always care, even if I dont show it." Hermione smiled and kissed the blondes cheek.  She turned and left the room.

End of flashback..

Draco could hear laughter from Emma and Daphane. He didnt want to face the two witches. He knew they would hex him into oblivion for letting Hermione go.

"Draco." A snarky voice said.

Without lifting his head, Draco groaned, "what do you want Uncle?"

"To see you happy. Something I never got in my life." Snapes portrit scoffed.

"I cometely ruined it with Granger." Draco groaned

"You are giving up? No wonder you didnt go to Hufflrpuff." Snape scowled.

"Uncle, please stop. I dont need this right now. Im an idot! I never should have hired Hermione to work for me!" Draco growled.

"Yet you did. Because you love her. As Dr. Swann and the real you. Admit it." Snape smirked.

"Git."

"A wise know it all git thank you. You shouldnt have lied to her though." Snape frowned

"Dont you think I know that?!" Draco growled. "Have you talked to her lately?"

"No, I havent since she divorced the Weasel ape. I will go see her. She will forgive you Draco, she did the first time around." Snape stated then left the portrit.

"I think thats unlikely." Draco murmered to himself.