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"Are you sure you want to do this? It's been just two months, Charlotte. Are you sure you're ready?" Robert asks me as I close my suitcase.
I turn around and look at him. He's leaning against the wall of the room looking at me.
"Well, for me it feels like an eternity. And I can't just sit in this house because I'm going to lose it. So, yes. I am sure but that doesn't mean that I'm ready, I just have to be," I say and go downstairs. He follows me downstairs while carrying my suitcase.
"I know you're worried and I get why you are but I don't need you to protect me, I don't need anything from you," I say, he just stares at me for a minute but then leaves
He goes and puts my suitcase into the car parked in front of the house while I say goodbye. Then I lock it and go to the car. I hesitate for a minute but then go in.
The World Cup season is starting this weekend and as a part of my job I'm going with the team to all the competitions, well, I had a choice. I could have work from home but that would kill me. The house is full of memories and reminders that he's not here with me, being at the competitions I feel closer to him. It feels like he's there with me and I'm just waiting for him to jump but he never does. I'm scared a little bit because everyone's been treating me in gloves and now that there are going to be all the others teams and Anders' competitors, I am just tired of hearing those four words over and over again.
"We're here, sweetie," I hear Robert and look through the window, I see the airport and step outside
"You okay?" Robert asks me and I nod. He passes me my suitcase and we go inside
"Hey, Char," Kenny says and hugs me as we meet him and the others, I murmur something that's supposed to be hey and he doesn't say anything more, nobody does.
Everybody is quiet because nobody knows what to say to me.
"I am sorry. I've pushed you all away because of some stupid reason and I shouldn't do that. I've been angry because of everything that has happened and I forgot that I'm not the only one hurting. So, I'm sorry and I'd also like for you to stop pushing in me because I don't talk. I never had. I've been playing the perfect girl my whole life and nobody ever suspected that maybe a perfect girl has problems too, everybody thought that she's just too perfect to have real-life problems. So, I've never talked to people about my problems, not for a long time. And now I've lost the person who knew all of my problems and I don't think I'm ready to talk again," I say as I see that no one will say anything.
"Do you feel better now when you told us this?" Daniel suddenly asks and looks at me
"Not better, just relieved that I got it out," I answer his question as we hear the call for our flight
"I'm sorry, Char. I should have talked to you when you were younger and I didn't, so I'm sorry," Robert says as he pulls me aside for a moment
"Don't be because that experience made me who I am now and I like me," I say and we go back to the others
We go through the checking and boarding without any complications. I sit with Robert as he kindly offered to save me from sitting with Kenny.
"They are suspecting, Charlotte. Why don't you want to tell them?" Robert asks me as we're putting the seat-belts on. I haven't told the guys that I'm pregnant yet because they would treat me like I'm even more fragile.
"In case anything happens. I don't want to give them false hope," I make an excuse for Robert but I can see that he's not buying it
We don't talk for a while as the plane is starting to leave. It wasn't my first time flying but it felt different, I couldn't let anything happen to me or the baby. I don't think I'd survive the loss of my baby. I take a deep breath as I look out of the window, I see the airport getting smaller and smaller. The highway slowly disappearing and then how clouds are slowly appearing around the plane. Then I don't see anything but the clouds, I can feel my stomach turning of the thought that I'm leaving him behind but I have.
"You okay?" I hear a voice from behind. Andreas. I turn my head around and see him staring at him with a worried face
"Yeah, I'm fine. I just get a little bit nauseous every time I fly," I lie but he doesn't buy it
"I know you're pregnant," he says just as I want to turn my head back. I look at him and put my left hand on my stomach.
"I'm sorry I haven't told you but I wanted to make sure that everything will be all right," I apologize but he just shakes his head
"You don't have to be sorry, it's your life and just so you know, we heard when your mom came to talk to Robert at one of the training. We heard about her being concerned about you flying while being pregnant but we didn't want to push you in telling us," he tells and I laugh
"Of course, you do. I knew you were treating me too carefully. Thank you for letting me now, you can also tell your teammates, pretty please," I ask him but he just laughs and shakes his head
"I think you'll do it just great if you tell them by yourself," he says, I just laugh and turn around.
I look out of the window and I'm gone in a minute.
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DAYS WE'VE SPENT APART (Anders Fannemel)
Fiksi Penggemar"Everything's going to be okay," Kenneth says "Never say this again," I say and walk away THIS IS A SEQUEL TO "DAYS I'VE SPENT WITHOUT YOU (Anders Fannemel)". IT'S RECOMMENDED TO READ THAT ONE FIRST!
