(im)patience

Chapter 10

[Kaycee]

Getting out of the shower, the first thing I did was to check my phone. Again. A frustrated sigh escaped my lips as I was met yet again with no sign or call. I furiously grab the phone with both hands and open a blank text message. I stare at it for a couple of seconds, not sure what I was going to say and as impulsively as it all started, I lock the screen and threw the poor thing on the bed.

My fingers somehow found a small pillow and clenched it harshly, bringing it to my face. I let out a silent scream into the material, all the noise being muffled into it. I bit my bottom lip as I felt another rush of tears forming in the corner of my eyes and hugged to pillow closer to the chest, trying to hold myself together.

"Breakfast is served, milady" Kylie's chirpy voice burst out of the sudden in my bedroom, making me jump.

Good thing my back was facing the door, giving me the opportunity to make myself busy by pretending to look for something in the closet.

"Not hungry, I'm actually about to go for a run. But you can leave everything on the desk or something" I tried to sound as casual as possible, still hiding my face.

Instead of going away, I heard my sister close the door behind her, setting the food tray where I suggested and made herself comfortable on my bed. I could feel her stare piercing my back.

"Do you need me to drive you to any class today?" She asked, her voice hiding an unknown curiosity, besides the obvious answer.

"No. I have other plans today, thank you." I tried dismissing her as kindly as possible, but she was slowly hitting some soft spots.

"I may not be good at calculus, but I can do some simple math on the last week or so. I think this is the longest break you took from dance, you don't even enter the garage anymore. You work yourself out in the gym all day long and you barely eat anything. And this whole thing started at the same time I stopped seeing Sean around." Her statement was full of concern, but got the whole situation down to a t.

My body stiffened with every word that came out of her mouth. Now I didn't want to face her even more than at first. I just wanted everything to go away, to be able to go back in time and do things differently.

"You know you can tell me anything. I'm here no matter what it is that you're going through and -" I cut her off with a sudden bear hug, letting out a soft and tired sob on her shoulder.

I told her every little detail that has been swirling through my mind in a hopeless black hole for more than a week now. My voice cracked too many times to count, but I managed to get everything out of my system and it felt slightly better. Not good, just better.

Grabbing my shoulders, Kylie pulled me into another hug when I was finished and petted my head reassuringly.

"Sometimes I truly forget that you're only 16 and there still are things that you haven't mastered yet." She chuckled sincerely, keeping one of my hands in hers. The simple gesture had a calming effect on me.

I half smiled, waiting for her feedback on the matter. At the same time, I was trying to figure out why I didn't go to her in the first place. If there was a place I could always find a warm smile and some genuine advice it would definitely be my house.

"I get where your reaction came from, but you must also understand that my opinion could be totally biased, as I've seen both of you and your bond grow through years." I nodded, bracing for whatever was going to follow.

Kylie took a deep breath and after a few moments taken to choose her words, she spoke her mind, making all the things clearer in the process.

"This will always be scary stuff, Kaycee. Putting yourself out there for someone else is risky. The most important and maybe hardest thing is to find the right person worth taking that risk with. It's always a two way road and between you two I feel like there's already a freaking highway built. You can stay and watch everything follow its course from the safety of your end or you can meet the poor guy in the middle and save yourselves some unnecessary misery." She made a little pause before she added "Wow, I wish I could give myself that kind of pep talk when I need it."

I could feel something tingling in the pit of my stomach and for the first time in a while I saw a light at the end of the endless tunnel I thought I let myself wonder into.

"So, um, where do I start?" I asked still unsure of how I was going to get my life back together.

"Just chill and go with the flow. Take a class, dance your problems off." She winked knowingly and rushed downstairs as a persisting honk could be heard from our front door.

I sighed profoundly, got dressed in some comfy clothes and answered Brian Friedman's request to assist him in class today. In my attempt to get some sense of normality back, I decided to cook something and have a proper meal. And by cooking I meant boiling some pasta and hoping there was some sauce left in the house.

As I was moving around the kitchen, my phone beeped shortly and vibrated on the counter, a sign that I received a message. I quickly wiped my hands on a towel and after unlocking my phone, I remained still, staring wide-eyed at eight little words.

(Sean Lew) "Meet me for tour rehearsals at Millenium, 8pm ?"

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[Author's note]

A full Kaycee p.o.v chapter because it's babygirl's birthday. If that's not a big enough occasion to post idk what is. Oh my, they grow up so fast *sigh*. I'm so sorry for not updating in over a month. Starting a serious job while in college is a deadly combination. 10/10 won't recommend if you still want to have a life. I have no idea when I will be updating next, all I can say is that I'm going to finish this story sooner or later, I promised myself that. If there's still people willing to read this, I salute you. See ya ! ^_^