I wake up normally nothing waking me and no weird dreams nothing
I grab my phone going throw evey thing like I always do I then get out of bed going to the bathroom and doing what I normally do and then walking out and going to the kitchen making myself coffee and then sitting down on the table . Drinking my drink
Jonah: morning
Tegan: mhh
I carry on drinking my drink until it's all gone and then going to my room shutting the door
I go to my closet kneeling down on the floor grabbing a box and opening it
I grab a load of pitcher's of my first baby it's been 2 years since I lost it . Last year was hard and this year just feels harder knowing Jonah's here
I look throw evey thing bring back all the pain I went throw losing it . It just hits me all the sadness I let a couple tears slid down my face but I quickly wipe them
I carry on looking until my phone goes off
Joe: hope your ok I know what today is and just know I'm thinking of u xx
Tegan: thank u for rembering and I hope everything ok with u xx
Joe: I'm ok just rember I'm thinking of u don't do anything stupid like u did last year's xx
Tegan: I won't x
I put my phone away and start putting the pitcher's away and back in the closet and stay sitting on the floor
Christan : are u ok
Tegan: fine
Then again my phone goes off and it's max
Tegan: hi
Max: hi what are u doing today
Tegan: nothing
Max: do u want to spend the day with us
Tegan: sure
Max : do u want to come to the hotel and then we're go from there
Tegan: ok I'll be there in a bit
Max: ok see u in a bit
I hang up
Christan : who's that
Tegan: max
Christan : are u meeting your family
Tegan: yh
Christan : ok
I get changed into leggings a top and jumper and walk out
Tegan: I'll see u later
Jonah : see u later
Tegan: yh
I walk out and drive to the hotel and I see them out side
Lena: hi how are u
Tegan: ok
Max: we're thinking of going thorpark have u been there before
Tegan: yh I have it's really good
Ivan: ok well can we go I just want to sit down my head hurts
Tegan: same
We head to there car and we start driving until Ivan messages me
Ivan: I don't want to talk about in front of mum and dad but I think something was in the weed I can't stop being sick
Tegan: I feel the same but I was only sick last night but my head killes
Ivan: aj thinks somone messed with it and put something else in it
Tegan : so we don't know what we took
Ivan: pretty much
Tegan: great for all we know could be dying 😂
Ivan: I know but I think we would be dead by now
Tegan: probley
Ivan: fell I'm gonna try sleep maybe it will go
Tegan: have fun
I mean against the window letting a tear fall down and I quickly wipe it
Bry: why are u crying
Tegan: I'm not it's just some things on my mind
Max : what is it
Tegan: it dosent matter buts more of the pain of my headache
Ivan: be quite I'm trying to sleep my head kills
Lena: are u both ok
Me and Ivan : fine
