Countless || Key FF

Part 7 - What's happening?

Key is sitting on a chair in front of his mixing panel he has a headset hanging around his neck and he looks at me, "What do you want?" He asks while he gulps. I smile softly. "I wanted to tell you that it sounded very good what you send to me last night" I compliment him, he points at the chair next to him as a sign I can sit down. "So you do read my messages" Key says while he looks at the ground, I nod. "I'm sorry I forgot to answer" I let a sigh roll over my lips, "I told you not to do anything crazy but you did anyways" He says while his eyes meet mine, a bit confused I look at him. "I didn't do anything crazy?" It comes out as an question, mostly because I'm really lost.
"You kissing Taemin" Key blurts it out as if it's nothing. I sigh and look at my hands, "You're not the only one that's not happy about that" I say with a soft sigh, it sounds mean to say but normally I'm not like this. Not even when I'm drunk, when I'm drunk I use to do other stuff like pulling pranks that end up being stupid. "Wait what?" Key looks at me, I slowly lift my head so I can look in his eyes, his beautiful eyes. "I don't know why I kissed him but just know that I don't like him in a romantic way, he is just a good friend" I smile softly at Key and he nods softly. "What are you working on?" The subject is being changed and I'm glad I did otherwise it would've been very awkward.

The room is filled with laughter, Key and I are fooling around with the audio equipment. "You do have a good voice" Key looks at me, a blush appears on my face. I shake my head, "No my voice is only good when I sing in the shower" I chuckle and Key shakes his head with a laugh, he turns a few buttons and I look at him amazed, it's amazing how he knows it all out of his head, I would forget everything the first second.
"I have to go!" I look at my watch, Key looks at me a bit shocked from my sudden loud voice. He stands up and I follow, I want to press a kiss on his cheek but he turns his head and my lips touch his. Instead of pulling away we keep standing there, our lips touching. Butterflies release in my stomach and I close my eyes after a few moments Key pulls away. "Uh, where do you have to go?" He asks, "I have an appointment with the hairdresser for our photo shoot next week" I smile and look at Key, "I'll see you soon!"

The hairdresser looks at my hair, "I got a few colours here but it can't be done in one session" He says, I nod slowly. I was used to my hair being dyed and bleached, although it's bad for my hair I couldn't do something else. I have to, it's my job. "We'll bleach it first and when the day is there we'll put in the colours okay?" He smiles and I nod, "Yeah sure, thank you in advance" I smile at him and give him a light bow. Someone hands me a magazine and I thank her, my hair is being bleached carefully and I look in the mirror, the half is done and honestly I'm very curious about the colour my hair will be for the ad.

"You're done, I'll send the instructions to your manager and the people who arrange the shoot and you'll be fine" He smiles and I bow for him, "Thank you very much!" I smile, "It's no problem really, I'm doing what I love and that's all that matters right?" I nod and grab all my stuff, I thank him again and walk towards the doors. I exit the building and the cold air hits me. Outside are some fans and paparazzi, they take photo's of me and I put a cap on my head. "Hanaji! Comments about you and Taemin dating?!" Some men are screaming the sentence, I stiffen but try to ignore it. I know I have to ignore what they yell but this is my dating life they are talking about. "What happened that made you kiss the boy in the picture?" That question is a relieve for me, they still don't know it was Taemin. I walk towards the girls that are cautiously waiting for me, "Hanaji! Can I have a picture with you?" one of the girls ask, I nod with a smile "Of course" she grabs her phone and her handshakes, she makes a few shaky photos. "Do you want me to take it for you?" I ask her politely, her mouth drops but she nods, I grab her phone carefully and make a few photos. "Hanaji can I have your opinion on something?" One of the other girls carefully pokes my shoulder, I nod with a smile "Of course!" I smile, "My friend gets bullied at school just because she's gay, what do you think about the gay people?" I bit my lip, it sounds like she is from the press or something. "Being gay is natural, we shouldn't make that big of a deal out of it, people act like it's a disease but it's not" The girl her eyes lit up, something tells me she didn't mean her friend. I smile towards her "I should get going right now but I hope I'll see you guys again!" I bow for them and wave shortly, I start walking away and feel everyone watching me.

My keys land with a hard sound on the cabinet in the hallway. My feet find their way toward the couch and I let myself fall on it. A sigh leaves my mouth and I rub in my eyes, a yawn also escapes my mouth and the images of today come all back, the kiss with Taemin this morning, the kiss with Key. When I think about the kiss with Key butterflies fill my stomach, I shake my head. I can't like him! I have to focus on my career not on boys. I let my head fall in the pillow on the couch and a soft scream leaves my lips, "Why does it always have to go like this?" I sit straight and stare at myself in the reflection of the television. My telephone rings and I look a bit confused, "Who even calls on the landline?" I ask myself while I go and answer it, "Hanaji speaking?" I hear loud traffic noise coming from the other side, "Finally you pick up!" Juanhyu his voice fills my hearing, of course, the one person I'm trying to avoid calls the landline and I have to pick up. Can my life get any better? "What is it Juanhyu?" I ask with a sigh, clearly unhappy about his call. "Are you mad Hanaji?" Juanhyu sounds insecure, to be honest, I don't have an answer to his question, I don't know if I'm mad or if I'm just hurt, maybe both. "I don't know" I say, Juanhyu sighs. "At least you're honest" the conversation falls silent and you can feel that it is very awkward. "I know I should have told you earlier but I couldn't, I hope you understand" Juanhyu his voice sounds a bit shaky, "I don't know Juanhyu, we should've done this together, but you just left without any warning" I say. Maybe I am mad, I mean he did leave after all. "I know Hanaji and I'm super sorry but think about it, it was more your dream than mine. Just understand that please" Juanhyu wants to say more but he gets cut off by the voice of a woman. The line falls still and a beep is the only sound coming from the phone. "Yeah, good talk" I sigh and put the phone away.

My eyes are playing around with the shadows in my bedroom, my thoughts left a while ago. It's just blank inside my head. A lot has happened the past few hours and days, it all happened so fast it feels like it was just a dream. A dream where I can't wake up from. I feel my eyelids getting heavier and I slowly drift off to sleep, with dreams where I can escape reality. Dreams where things are meant to be better unless they are nightmares.

"You're disappearing, more and more, without a sound
From me, without any reason
Was everything a misunderstanding?
Were we looking at each other in a dream?"