Ambitious Series: Zenon (BxB)

Chapter 8

      August 2011

       I use to think that there was nothing going on within me. Focus ako sa aking studies and I don't want to be involved in any kind of "false emotional attachment" to anyone. Sa madaling salita, ayokong mainlove sa kahit kanino man. I want to be successful in many ways. I want to be just like Dad na kahit anong ginawang panglalait ng mga tao sa kanya, he still rise from everything. Naging successful businessman siya and now runs a company that is awarded internationally.

     Yun ang pangarap kong makamit. I want to be the best crime buster in the world. I want to put an end to every evil this world has created to humanity. Hindi man ako maging superhero, but the fact that I can save people's lives from devastation, it will all be worthy. Kaya nagsisikap akong maging top sa klase ko. And when I make it, CIA Academy is my next target.

     Pero may mga bagay na hindi mo inaasahan na bigla nalang uusbong sa iyong isipan. And gradually affects your whole system. At ito ang nararamdaman ko ngayon while watching Levi punching that sand bag in his training room.

     Every movement, every strike that he makes. Para akong nahyhypnotize na hindi ko malaman kung bakit?

    "Stop staring at me like that fag.. I can't concentrate." sabi niya na nagpaawang ng bibig ko. He knew that I was staring at him.

    "Then it's better. That is the point of your weakness." sagot ko naman sa kanya na kinatigil niya sa kanyang ginagawa.

    "So you mean you are my weakness?" he asked sarcastically na kinataas lang ng kilay ko.

    "I don't know.. Try to ask yourself.. Are you distracted by my presence?" I asked him and he just laughed out loud.

     "Nagpapatawa ka ba? Ako madidistract sayo? You don't have boobs.. You don't have what it takes to turn me on." he said devilishly looking into my eyes.

    I just cleared my throat and for a brief moment, I admit that I have that unfamiliar feeling inside me. Nasaktan ako sa sinabi niya. Usually, I don't care about it. Pero iba yung dating sakin ng sinabi niya.

    "Stop being so conceited.. You are here because we had a deal. And that's for you to train me to be a better fighter."

    "I know.. And the sooner, the better. So why don't we just have a real fight now. Shall we?" I answered him. I am trying to be as patient as I can be. Kahit sawang sawa na ako sa mga parinig niya.

    "Okay.. Let's try it again. Parang nagmamadali ka rin na matapos ang ating kasunduan." sabi niya and for a moment there, his eyes has a different look. He seems disappointed.

     Nakikipaglaro ba siya sakin? Is this a game of tolerance or a game of who will snap out first?

     Isa isa kong tinanggal ang aking damit. My tank top and joggers. I wrapped my hands with bandages and I wore my favorite gloves. I am ready. And I just want everything to end. Kung magpatalo nalang kaya ako? But he will know that. I just have to be more passive then.

    The gym in his house was huge enough for a boxing ring to be installed. Pumasok kami sa loob ng kwadrado and I tried to observe his facial expressions. Ang mga tingin niya sakin na kung kanina ay puno ng kahambugan at panunuya, napalitan na ng inis at pagkadismaya na hindi ko naman maintindihan.

    "You really want to get out of my life that bad?" he said in a very different tone. Halatang dismayado siya sa akin.

     "There's no point of keeping up with you kung ang dahilan mo lang sa deal na ito ay natalo ka ng isang baklang katulad ko." I said in a dead tone na mas kinainis niya pa lalo.