Someday Soon. By Hassanab

Chapter fourteen

Whenever, I think of that fateful day that brought our part together, its give me shudder to think about how I envisioned us, after getting married, the feeling of nothing but total bliss the whisper of sweet nothing's lingering on our minds a reminder of the affectionate words we both shared.

When reality sets in and those feelings are wiped off and what lays there is just a fragrance of what might have been.

Being alive as  different meaning to everyone.
Mine was quite different from everybody, its being fully aware that those living with me or around me feel my presence, but when those around me do everything, but to realise my presence  means  nothing to them, hurts me the most, I stood up stretching my stiff muscles trying to reduce the cramps in my body, after being asleep on the chair throughout the night, my body was thanking me by protesting, but i ignored it, by getting up to do my normal morning routine.

I made my way to the kitchen to prepare breakfast for the family .
After a rigorous hour of being in the kitchen I was rewarded by the aroma that where now wafting from the kitchen.

I ordered the maid to arrange the platters of food on the table , as I made my way to Amir's study to notify him of breakfast,

I tapped severally on the door, when I received no answer  i turned the knob and the door opened effortlessly trying to be as quiet as possible  i went in,

It was still early, so the tiny rays of light where penetrating trying to light the study which ends up being abortive due to the drapes that they where doing their job of keeping the lights from coming in, as i saw the table lamp illuminating the room, while Amir was busy flipping pages from a folder placed  in front of him,he then scribbled on it while answering call at the same time,  he made multi tasking look seamless, i always envy that trait about him, he always keeps his cool in whatever condition he finds himself. The opposite was me as I could flip from being calm to  being confused at a flip of a button, when am under pressure, its just get to me no matter how  hard I try to keep my cool.
I took the time to study him, as he furrowed his brows, my heart skipped a notch  as I studied the different kinds of emotions that appeared on his face, just to be wiped off when he realised that he had company, if not because of how I was looking at him intensely I would have sworn it was nothing but a mirage.

He held the phone away for a bit before resuming his call when he realised that i was the one, just that bit of inaction caused my already shattered will to further plunged into a well of oblivion as i waited for him to end his conversation on the phone.

He raised his brows in question, which wasn't difficult for me to comprehend as I mouthed the word breakfast, he answered by gesturing to me to go on without him.

It dawned on me at that moment that I   I was the only one in this marriage hoping for it to get better, right that instance I knew he entered this relationship not for the matters of the heart but as a business deal.

I scoffed as I made my way back to the dinning room.

I was rewarded by the sounds of clatters as everyone was busy munching their food, I always feel left out, as i was used to us talking during breakfast, everyone trying to spin tales about their  day went.

But it was quite different with this family, they are quite stiff, and the most sound that could be heard on their table would be the clatter of cutleries.

When we were young we always dream of becoming an adult not knowing that adulthood comes with a lot of responsibilities.
It was the tap  on my shoulder that brought me out of my trance as I glanced at the person to notice that three sets of eyes were looking at me.

Sorry, i didn't get you I quickly muffled praying that I didn't sound like a five year of with food in the mouth.

They all got back to their food, as i was beyond embarrassed.