*Betrayed - An act of deliberate disloyalty*
It's been 2yrs of me and Ezra dating, and believe me I loved every part of it but after a year or so something changed, we became more distant, our sleep schedule is different times I go to bed at like 11pm or something and he goes to be at 3am, it's upsets me, we haven't been able to talk like we used to anymore and it just sucked, the guys could see it as well and Jay has been trying to take my mind off it, but I can never stop thinking about it, he sometimes says how much it's hurting Ezra, but to be honest it's hurting the both of us, sometimes it doesn't even feel like we're a couple but let me explain to you how we got to this point
I remember us having a huge argument which then took us taking a break from eachother which lasted for a week and that's because we we're way too in love to stay away from eachother but when we got back together after a few months everything changed and it's doing nothing but hurting the both of us. But I just can't bring myself to break up with him and Jay says it's the same for Ezra, Jay and Mason are my closest friends and Mason is one of Ezra's closest friend, Mason and Jay got us together, they knew we both like eachother so that's how everything started, which ended up me and Ezra dating and everyone being happy because of it, but since I kinda catched you up on what happened let's begin this book shall we?
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I remember waking up and as usual Ezra wasn't there, it was like that most of the time now, he would get too tired to come up to the bedroom so he would sleep on the couch, I knew we needed to end this suffering to make eachother feel better, but I don't know if it will it make me feel better or will it make me feel worse, but I didn't care about me, i never cared about me but I mostly need to know if it was going to make Ezra feel better
After a while of just thinking I got up and went into the kitchen, made myself some coffee, while I was waiting for the kettle to finish I went into the living room to see Ezra shivering, so I closed the window took a blanket and covered him with it, I then decided to make him some coffee too since I knew he always takes it in the morning, once it was done I put it on the side table hoping it wouldn't be cold when he wake up
I then went up to the bathroom brushed my teeth put on a bit of make-up, I then put on my black leggings with my blue and white jumper with the word "respect" with my black converse shoes, I then went down the stairs I wrote a note saying I'm out and I will be back soon, I took my house keys and my car keys and headed out.
I called Jay while starting up my car and when he answered I said "Hey Jay are you free today?"
He then said "Hey {name} ye I am, why what's up?"
I then said "Wanna hung out for a bit?" I sounded excited for some reason when I didn't want to
He then said while soft chuckling under his breath "ye sure where do you wanna meet up and when?"
I was thinking of were we could go but I quickly thought of something and I said "how about now and at Starbucks?"
He didn't answer, after a minute or so he said "ye sure, cya then"
I then said "cya" and hanged up. I started driving to Starbucks and after 15mins I was there, I got out of my car and headed in to see Jay already inside sitting at our favourite table, he then waved at me and I went over to him
"Hey, how are you?" He said
While I was faking a smile I said "never been better"
He then said while chuckling "we both know that's bullshit" I then nodded but I didn't say anything
After a while I said "I don't know what to do though, I don't want to lose him, I really don't want to Jay, but if this will make him better than I have got to do this, I really hate it how everything changed because I really love him and I don't want to lose him"
He then said not wanting to make eye contact with me "you gotta also think about yourself though no-"
I then cut him off and said "we both know full well that I don't give a shit about myself, I care more about my friends and especially him than myself"
He then said "I know but you have to change that, put yourself first for once-" he then got cut off by a waitress coming and asking us what we would like, I guess this must be another type of Starbucks because we normally need to order at the bar, no one normally takes orders but whatever.
Ezra's pov
I woke up with a blanket covering me, coffee on the side table and a note near the coffee I took the note first and read it, {name} had gone out for a bit but she would come back in a bit, luckily enough my coffee was quite warm so I was able to enjoy it
I called Mason and asked him if he wanted to play some CS:GO and he agreed, so there we were talking over discord and playing CS:GO we were talking about a few things but y/n was one of them, and we were talking about her a second ago
I then said "I really like her man, like I don't wanna lose her or anything, it's just all gone to crap, we don't talk like we used to, we don't sleep together anymore, everything has gone to crap and i mean everything"
He then said "you gotta do what's right for the both of you, if you think breaking up will make everything better than go for it, but you won't know it until you've done it"
I then said "you're right, you really are" but I still don't know what to do. After a few hours of me and Mason playing I said I needed to go so I left, {name} still hasn't come home and I still don't know what I should do, but what's best is for us to break up and I'm going to do that, even if it meant I was going to be in so much pain I just need to know if she is going to be alright
°Thank you for deciding to read my book and I hope you're gonna enjoy it°
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°Ye some of this chapters will be a bit sad but that's because I'm just really fucking depressed and shit but don't worry°
