Ezra's pov
I ran out of the room, I needed to be alone, so I ran while Mason was chasing after me, I ran deep into the woods to our favourite spot, once I got there there was a bridge and I got on the edge, Mason shouted "don't you dare do shit" but I didn't care so I jumped, I jumped hoping there were rocks on the ground but Mason grabbed my arm, and there I was dangling off a bridge with my best friend holding me
I then said while tears still streaming down my face "Mason just let me fucking go, without her I'm nothing, she was the only thing that kept me happy and I fucked up, i made her fucking sad, I can't live with the thought of fucking up the love of my life"
He then said "so by fucking killing yourself is the solution, nah cunt she's only gonna get worse"
I then looked below me, there was a river it was still I couldn't see any rocks so I said "cya" and let go of his hand
While I was falling into the river i could hear the shouts of Mason saying "no you fucking cunt" when I hit the water I looked up to see Mason looking down at me I then saw him running off, the water was cold but I didn't mind, I then got out of the river, the river was quite deep but I was able to swim even if branches kept going to my face, when I got out I looked around and I ran once again hoping that if I could run fast enough i would be able to get away from reality
Jay's pov
I quickly went into my car and drived back to {name}, after an hour or so I arrived and I quickly went in, Ryan was sitting on the floor next to {name} and he was whispering things I don't know what tho, he was really good at calming her down, when he saw me I waved over to him for him to come over to me he then mouthed "pass me her phone and headphones" and so I did, for a few minutes he was doing something with her phone plugged in the headphones and whispered something once again and then he put her headphones on her and he then came over to me
I then said in a whisper everything that happened, he then said "where is he now?"
I then said "I don't know Mason was chasing after him but he still hasn't told me anything, but Ezra looked really fucking upset especially when he shouted all those things, he really loved her, he still does" I then looked over at {name} and said "she's going through so much and I really hope she'll get better man"
He then nodded and said "same" we stayed down with {name} always incase something else happened and after a while we heard someone knock and {name} took her headphones off, when I opened to see it was Mason I quickly said "where is he, what happened?" But when he was trying to say something {name} ran out, she ran out of my house and I shouted "{name} where are you going"
Mason then looked at her and then looked back at me and said "let her go, she will come back" and then after a few seconds he chased after her
Your pov
There would be nights we're I would run to Ezra to escape reality and that was a couple of months before we moved in together, I was able to escape from reality just by running to him and that's what I needed right now but I couldn't go to him and instead I ran to our spot, because that would also make me feel safe
After a while Mason catched up to me and said "{name} stop, stop running" but I didn't, I didn't want to stop, but he then grabbed my arm and I said while accidentally shouting "just let me fucking go, please I need him"
He then said "{name} if you go to him again the only thing that is going to happen is you getting hurt"
I then said "please, just let me go I need him mason, I need Ezra, if you won't let me see him then I'll go to our spot but just let me go please" after a few seconds he did I looked at him and then I ran. It was dark I checked my phone to see it was 23:47pm, but I didn't care after a few minutes I was there, I was infront of the river where we first kissed, this was our place, deep into the woods near the river, after that we would go on the bridge on top of the river and that's where we normally sit and look down and we would then just look at eachother and kiss
I had been sitting there for an hour or maybe more with my headphones on listening to Billie Eilish playlist on Spotify, just letting all our memories come back, I didn't care anymore, I was already crying, I felt like absolute shit and I was already depressed
I hit rock bottom, and let me tell you it's not fun, I'm deep in depression, I'm always taking shit to take my feelings away, I'm always getting high or drunk to forget and I'm certainly not who I used to be anymore, as I went to check my phone to see what time it was my favourite song came on 'hostage-Billie Eilish' I then heard movement around me but when I looked around there was nothing, there was no one, I was alone once again
°even if this chapter was shit I hope you're enjoying my book°
