Rum is my friend.
It quietly moves around my body,
Greeting my brain as an old friend
And lulling me into fuzzy sleep
I mask its bitter taste with the lies I tell myself
my parents
my friends
everyone I care about
So sweet like my lonely summer.
I can get away with so much more like this,
Until someone takes away what I use to hurt myself,
so what am I to do?
The only thing left to do of course,
stir the lies into a glass and feel it burn my throat,
until they say I am drunk.
Then bear my chest to everyone
while I lie in my bed alone.
Gotta drink to wear anything,
From a bikini to a t shirt.
Days aren't safe anymore,
darkness laps at edges like the tide coming in
Oh god, drown me already,
I don't want this anymore.
Wrap your watery arms around me,
mother sea
Hold me in your heart my love,
let the ocean take me.
