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11 . (I need to dissapear💔). Shiro x Suicidal~Reader

THIS IS A WARNING IF YOU ARE VERY SENSITIVE AND DONT LIKE THINGS SUICIDAL DO NOT READ THIS anyway enjoy~
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Y/n POV

Useless I am a useless human being sometimes I feel like I don't even deserve to be alive. There's nothing special about me. I just get in everybody's way even the Paladins say so. I wish I never got caught up in all this save the world shit because every time we go on a mission I just screw everything up.

The thing is I know I'm not perfect no one is. Even though I feel all this pain inside I hold it all in and cover it up with a smile trying to hide my pain from everyone else in the castle.

Just like every other day I get up a frown on my face and walk to the bathroom to get ready for the day. I put on my sweat pants and opened my drawer under my sink and grabbed the silver razor that I slit my wrists with everyday to get rid of the pain I'm feeling. I can hardly feel the pain anymore I always see the Crimson red blood that drips down my wrists and onto the floor. Once I was done I cleaned the cuts I created and wrapped them and covered them with my long sleeves. After I was done i got up off the floor and headed out to the kitchen.

As I got there I heard everyone talking and whispering "Another mission with Y/n means another mistake" I hear Lance say to the princess "for once Lance is right were always having to keep an eye on her and she always screws something up" Pidge replies I frown at the  conversation I'm hearing. "Hey Y/n might need a little work but she has more passion than any of you and she cares about her friends" Shiro says defensively I smile he always cares for me. So like I do everyday I put a fake smile on my face and trot in and head to the fridge to grab some water .

"O-oh good morning Y/n did you hear any of our conversation"The princess asks wearily. I know there trying to keep it a secret to not hurt my feelings so I play along with there game. I shake my head no and they all nod I look over to Shiro and see him looking at me with sympathy. "So are we going on a mission today" I say pretending to be excited! I see everyone looking at each other and silence fills the room "yeah we are but we think it's best if you stay here" Keith says looking at me with no emotion on his face. (Bold is going to be you thinking in your head)
I know they think I'm useless I think that to but I just gotta keep smiling and maybe they just might think I'm ok.

I nod and keep on smiling "Sure thing is there anything else I can do on the ship to help out a little bit" i hear the princess scoff at me "I'm not letting you touch anything in my precious castle especially when you just mess everything up" I was shocked at her comment I know they all talk about me behind my back but I realize it hurts just as bad when they say it to my face. I feel tears prick my eyes I see Allura's eyes widen in shock at what she just said.

Come on Y/n you can keep a smile on your face you can just slit your pain away later.

I quickly wipe my tears and put my fake smile back on "ok princess I hope you all don't mind but I'm going to be heading back in my room I have to clean up a little" my voice not wavering at all since I'm used to holding  in  all the pain. I turn and walk away leaving all the Paladins with frowns on there faces looking at me as I walk back to my room to slit my wrists who would have ever thought my life would take a turn for the better.
~Time skip 5 hours after the mission~

Shiro's POV
I'm exhausted we just got  finished with our mission. Ive been very worried about Y/n I could tell she was very upset about what Allura said to her. And I also know she heard there conversation about her this morning to. The thing is I care about Y/n a lot let me just say more than a friend and I hate hearing the others talk bad about her because in my eyes she's perfect.

Y/n's POV
I can't take it anymore I just need to disappear everyone will be happier if I just disappear. Once  I got back to my room I headed straight to my bathroom to grab my razor today's the day I end my life to make everybody else's life better.

I started off like normal sliding the razor against the spots I haven't marked. I was ready to leave all this pain behind ready to be done with it all. All at once I slid the razor across my main artery and I was already starting to get dizzy before I heard the door burst open and before I blacked out the first thing I heard was

"Please be ok I love you I promise I'll save you "

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I'll be making a part two hope you enjoyed make sure to request if you have any ideas  to DM me love ya angels~            Grace -chan

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