Voltron X Reader one shots!!!!!

19. (I could have made it💔) Keith x Suicidal Reader

Well guys I am back and for good this time I finally have the motivation to write so I will a lot more!! So I know this is a depressing story but I will write some fluff soon andddd I decided I am going to start another book which is going to be another One shot book but about Haikyuu !!! Anyway enjoy the story and this was recommended by Wolfy_Ume (Sorry it took so long)

*WARNING MENTIONS OF DEPRESSION SUICIDE AND OTHER TOUGH TOPICS SKIP IF YOU DISLIKE*

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Y/n Pov

I always hated Mondays ever since I was a little girl, for some reason something  bad always  happens on a Monday. An example would be when ever I was 8, on a Monday my dad ran over my bunny rabbit that got loose out of it's cage. Or when I was 17 and my boyfriend of 2 years cheated on me with my older sister. Like I said Mondays are not for me and even now they still aren't, for the past 3 years I have been struggling greatly with depression, even just saying it out loud is like a burden on my shoulders. Then I met Keith, I met him whenever I joined the Galaxy Garrison program, I never really hung around others and I think that is what me and Keith clicked over.

After some time I met Shiro under weird circumstances of me and Keith having to save him from being questioned by people who worked in the garrison. Then even more crazy things occurred where we met Lance, Hunk, and Pidge while going back into space. That leaves me here currently on a huge castle that takes the form of a ship. All of the gang have been staying here along with our new partners Princess Allura and Coran. Like I mentioned before I have depression, it is something that has been a really big issue. I became depressed after my grandmother passed away, she was my best friend and one of the only people I felt I could talk to. When I met Keith and we got close it made me feel a lot better knowing I could talk to someone. After living here on this castle I feel like I have a real family. Keith and Shiro are the only other people who know about my depression, I hide it from all the others because I did not want any of them to worry.

Since I only ever had my grandmother as a companion, as someone to talk to I never really learned what true friends are, or how to tell who is a good friend and who is not. At this point I really wish I learned. It was just another day on the ship and I woke up with my wrists stinging, recently I have been feeling down and this is the way I dealt with it. I definitely did not tell Shiro he would kill me, but Keith knew because I trust him with everything, I am not even going to lie at this point I like Keith but I don't have the motivation to tell him. As I was walking down the main hall to go into the throne room to meet with everyone I heard some voices speaking, of course it was the gang but Keith and Shiro weren't there. Before I walked in I heard my name be mentioned, that was the beginning of my end.

" I do not even understand why Y/n has to stay on the ship I have to admit she is useless and is only a waist of resources" Allura stated while motioning to the other paladins to see their opinion. Lance was the first to agree "She is so annoying too always sucking up to Shiro and Keith I bet they don't even care about her". Then Hunk "I feel bad for agreeing but what you guys are saying is true I can't stand her". Lastly Pidge and let me tell you I was shocked because I thought girls stuck out for each other, "Y/n is a snob to just a waist of space I wish she was just gone". Before I knew it i felt something drip down my face I raised my hand and realized they were tears. "I bet Keith only feels guilty for her and is just pretending to be friends with her because he pities her" Allura added. I couldn't listen anymore I quickly turned away and ran back to my room, who would have thought my last memories were going to be there.

Keith's Pov

This morning I woke up very early to train with Shiro, we lost track of time and were late to this mornings meeting. Once we both arrived I noticed right away Y/n was missing it didn't even cross my mind if something was wrong, I just thought maybe she was just sleeping in but that wasn't the case. After the meeting was over Y/n still wasn't here and I became a bit worried, so I spoke up about it "Has anyone seen Y/n today she hasn't been in the throne room yet and she is usually on time". "Keith you need to stop messing with that girl it's only going to hurt her feelings" Lance said. I was confused, I glanced towards Shiro to see if he knew anything of what this weirdo was talking about but he just shrugged his shoulders.

"I have to agree I think you need to stop pretending to be Y/n's friend it will just make her more upset  in the end" Allura agreed with lance. I blew a fuse and stood up angrily "I would never do that to Y/n she is my best friend I love her with all my heart why would you think I was pretending". Each one of them explained what Y/n heard that morning, my eyes widened "How cruel are you people how could you say those things" Shiro stood and frowned upon the people in the room "I am so disspointed with you all". I quickly ran out of the throne room and headed straight towards Y/n's room, of course I knocked but there was no answer so I began to panic I cracked open the door and saw nothing unusual her bed was made nothing out of order, but then I saw the light was on in her bathroom with the door shut.

I barged in seeing her on the floor her eyes closed her body looking pail, there was blood loitering all around her body coming from her thighs,wrists, and stomach. My heart shattered I dropped to my knees and pulled her close "Y/N CAN YOU HEAR ME PLEASE BE OK" I checked her pulse and I could feel my heart stop, she didn't have one she wasn't even breathing. I got up and ran towards the healing pods yelling for Shiro to come help me. Everyone rushed out to see Y/n in my arms, tears running down my face hitting her pail skin. "WHY ARE YOU JUST STANDING THERE WE HAVE TO HELP HER PLEASE I CAN'T LOSE HER". Shiro put his hand on my shoulder he was upset as well but was better at not showing it "Keith we can't save her she's gone". My world seemed to be crumbling around me, knowing she was gone killed me and I didn't even have a chance to tell her how I really felt.

*Time Skip a couple days later*

It has been a couple days since Y/n passed, I want to bury her on earth so Allura is allowing me to freeze her body until we arrive on earth to have a real funeral. I couldn't stop thinking of all of the things Y/n had to go through hearing all of the comments the others made, and I didn't even realize it. After I calmed down a little when I found Y/n Shiro gave me a note that he found in the bathroom it was addressed to me and it was from Y/n the letter said.

Dear Keith,

By this time it means you have found my dead body in the bathroom, I am so sorry that things had to come to this but I couldn't mentally take the pain anymore. You and Shiro are the only people who ever looked out for me I thought that everyone on the ship was my family but I was wrong. Sometimes you don't really know people and that is ok. I didn't want to make you even more upset but I had to get everything off my chest, so I could rest in peace without in worries. I have loved you for a long time but I did not have the motivation to confess I wish we could have lived long lives together, but I couldn't handle it. I hope that you can move on and live with out me, please be safe.

                                          Sincerely, Y/n

I never understood how Y/n felt with having depression, but now that's she is gone from my life I think I understand. I was shocked finding out she was in love with me like I was in love with her, it kills me that we cannot be together but she is gone now. It's all my fault I couldn't' help her, I couldn't stop the pain she was feeling inside.

~I just wish I would have fallowed my gut I could have made it maybe Y/n could still be here~

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Ah gosh I feel rusty I haven't written in so long but I tried really hard to make this interesting umm so I hope @Wolfy_Ume enjoyed this and everyone else who read it also make suggestions guys I want to write things you guys enjoy so my Dm's are always open anyway I will write again soon bye guys!!

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